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[vicarz]

Ah ok, I'm an American. I want the end product of activity without engaging in the activity - in fact I'm famously stupid about realizing the end product I see is the result of activity.

I'm so fucking lazy - I keep working on things I can do alone, and not being satisfied with the results. Today I see couples with kids and dogs, the work and commitment I did not make, but the squeals and yips are cute. I like music, but don't bother to play any or even make the effort to see shows and follow good musicians. I like health, but have found not only the best workout in the least amount of time, but of course it's something I can do on my own (my god coordinating with others is so much work). Before this workout, I used to have another alone workout, and another one before that. Sure you can run with others, but that takes work.

My career is this way too - I've dug myself an ok paying hole where I work on my own when I want where I want.

The hours I've played my dumb game I could have used to remodel the bathroom - or for the love of god at least cleaned it. Dust bunnies under a sink are an actual sin. The game is something I can play with others, but I usually play alone.

Got it. I'm lazy, and the things I want take work. I want the things but don't want to work, and really I shouldn't want the "things" when I should be engaged in activities for which those "things" are the end result. Like friends.

Happy america, your version, day.

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[fitfool.livejournal.com]

you seem hardworking to me. I know what you mean about wanting to avoid extra effort but instead of thinking of needing to commit to a lifelong friendship with everyone you're friends with, why not just take it a day at a time and meet up whenever you can?

Then again, maybe you think of yourself as lazy because you know how much more you're capable of.