Nearly twitter tidbits

[vicarz]

I'm getting chastised more and more for not being into facebook. "No, I don't know about x that happened to you even if it was on facebook." My page scrolls every couple of hours - why bother looking? "Gee, what's happening right now? Who is a fan of McDonalds for $1 off a Big Mac?

Bobble-head or chicken-neck?

Part of me misses when I thought that being attracted to someone, or being attractive to someone, was important.

Another part of me is admitting that I miss being "important." I worked for so long I'm kind of weak on the "how to play" part of life right now. I, rather than feeding my current perceived need, need to relearn that. I have this identity as a slacker, but people argue with me about that. I never saw myself as hard-working, but I think you can get trapped there for various reasons - most of all habit. In my case, I think I got there out of fear. I am always scared of failing at work, so I work extra hard, take extra steps, and cover every angle I can think of. As an attorney, that's a good thing - but it's damn neurotic.

I think this applies to physical stuff too. I was scared of fighting, so I studied fighting. I felt weak, so I made myself stronger. I was fat, so I learned cardio (see also fighting). I wonder when a fighter has heart - is bravery something they are born with, or is it learned out of fighting fear the way I do. I wonder if there is no one answer - some are born, others can train to the same or better level. No matter.

Comments

[kelowna.livejournal.com]

Part of me misses when I thought that being attracted to someone, or being attractive to someone, was important.

It was important... to you. I think you are also missing what you are really trying to say, I think, by not including the term: PHYSICALLY.

I never saw you as a Slacker. Tho perhaps you see that in yourself compared with other times in you life. I feel somewhat like a slacker because I don't feel my efforts, currently, are accomplishing anything and that they are more empty efforts and time wasters. Tho I know when the ball gets rolling that this work ethic will have return.

I think you apply yourself in many different ways above and beyond what I consider a traditional slacker would do.

No slacker would ever go to the gym.

--k

[vicar.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure slackers don't go to the gym - slacker is subjective, and is never (or almost never) a full descriptor. I've never known a slacker-stoner who wouldn't work his ass off for a great supply of weed. Haven't you met people who suck as people, suck as friends, suck on bills, and suck at work - are dedicated as hell in the gym? Some people can't keep jobs but are super-hawt in the nightclub scene. I used to do that too - had an easy job, lay around the house ALL DAY Sat so when I hit the club that night I had prepped my look for hours (takes hours of preparation to get that wasted look).

I understand why you might see and say the physically attracted part - but that's not what I meant. Attractive, funny when I was thinking of it I was thinking more of forbidden fruit - physical aspects, but situation was huge too. Personality, brain, shared interests...when someone was attracted to me I never really knew why (or cared). I can't reliably predict what I find attractive, nor does it matter. I guess I was distinguishing from the fluffy stuff of any type that *poofs* into the air when challenged vs. long-term dynamic relationships.

But if I explain that this would hardly be fb/tweet

[kelowna.livejournal.com]

Well, the youth who were scrawny early on in the club scene either barely ate, did speed/coke or had super young fast metabolisms. I don't recall any of them "going to the gym" at that early age.

Nothing wrong with being attractive or being considered attractive - tho in this case I see it as being "liked" or "enjoyed" or a "pleasure to be around" based on your description.

--k