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Sep. 6th, 2014 08:21 amIt is and I am quiet. I feel guilt over unproductive time.
I might be in trouble at work - far more likely I witnessed events related to someone else in trouble, but I've been asked to have an investigatory interview with someone very high up in the organization, and in a different organization, what is when we do when someone is in trouble. I can't think of anything I've done, except perhaps use the internet? I don't think I use that "too much" but you never know - performance metrics often include discipline taken, our computer activity can be recorded in many ways, and objective cases make for easy documentation. I think it's far more likely someone I know from the discipline group or our own group is in trouble. In fact, I heard an unsupported theory that me and the recluse are being interviewed and it might be about my just-left coworker (the first one, not the one from yesterday). That would make sense as I know she filed complaints on her way out the door. Sadly, as much as I like her, I knew her story and didn't agree 100% with her side (nothing spectacular: she didn't have specific permission to work, did so out of loyalty but without specific permission, then her request to have her use-or-lose leave restored was denied).
However a bunch of us blew up when 2nd level sup was in charge; that's when I started job hunting and when both the black females who just left started their job hunt. I'm better with him now, but would be honest in my responses. I don't know of any misconduct but he certainly has flaws - none seem actionable though, and there are positives as well. My work-buddy is raising a stink but I don't think I know enough about that to be of any help to anyone.
So far as I know I don't do any misconduct; the only issue could be computer use. However, I think I keep it down plus I am aware of our computer reasonable use policies so...meh? Lots of people goof off all day, but they generally have iphones (it sounds like a forest in the office with all the IM notifications CHIRP BEEP DRIP RIBBIT). It's funny though - I'm not immune to the prosecution of misconduct, though I am certainly versed in it. It didn't even occur to me it might be me - I'd rather not have a permanent record of misconduct, and fed workers do have forever records. Low chance high stakes? I won't know until (a week from Monday?)
Today I work out. Part of me thinks the working out is temporary. More and more people are noticing "I'm bigger." I'm also fatter but nobody seems to mind - including me, though I make fun of it and wish my pants fit. It's funny to me I might need to go up a size in underwear as my ass is far more muscular and rocklike. But...I don't think this hour or two workout routine is forever. I'm in pain all the time, eating for the gym...then again what else do I do with that time?
Normally I'm scared of this workout, but since I've built up my sugars for anaerobic prowler pulls I'm less terrified of the pain. I'm also not scared of failure - I'm used to it. See I had a shoulder problem that really slowed me down on bench - I think I've worked through most of it, and found I was far stronger pushing the heavy weight up when I wasn't just fighting the pain to make it happen (this sounds obvious to some I'm sure). With my deadlifts I've worked around my broken ass; this week I tried to do a conventional deadlift and the screaming pain returned instantly. More than half my effort on squats is just trying to not be in pain, making me go slow, lean off-center, and other issues that all are effort spent not trying to lift the weight. Imagine standing up (with 200-300 lbs on your back) without pain. It's making surgery sound like a better idea.
I also am more aware that the butt pain is in my everyday life too. On the stairs, picking up a box, standing up from a chair or the floor - I have a lot of behaviors that are so routine I don't see them anymore, like bracing on my knee to use my arm strength rather than just standing.
I'm considering pro-bono work, perhaps working with disadvantaged communities. I don't think I'm qualified, don't know a thing about criminal or tax/debt law, but have found a lot of legal questions turn out to have the same general answers: read what you sign, keep records, organize records so you can find things, and helping people see out of their self-forgiving story to understand the other side or what actions they need to take.
I might be in trouble at work - far more likely I witnessed events related to someone else in trouble, but I've been asked to have an investigatory interview with someone very high up in the organization, and in a different organization, what is when we do when someone is in trouble. I can't think of anything I've done, except perhaps use the internet? I don't think I use that "too much" but you never know - performance metrics often include discipline taken, our computer activity can be recorded in many ways, and objective cases make for easy documentation. I think it's far more likely someone I know from the discipline group or our own group is in trouble. In fact, I heard an unsupported theory that me and the recluse are being interviewed and it might be about my just-left coworker (the first one, not the one from yesterday). That would make sense as I know she filed complaints on her way out the door. Sadly, as much as I like her, I knew her story and didn't agree 100% with her side (nothing spectacular: she didn't have specific permission to work, did so out of loyalty but without specific permission, then her request to have her use-or-lose leave restored was denied).
However a bunch of us blew up when 2nd level sup was in charge; that's when I started job hunting and when both the black females who just left started their job hunt. I'm better with him now, but would be honest in my responses. I don't know of any misconduct but he certainly has flaws - none seem actionable though, and there are positives as well. My work-buddy is raising a stink but I don't think I know enough about that to be of any help to anyone.
So far as I know I don't do any misconduct; the only issue could be computer use. However, I think I keep it down plus I am aware of our computer reasonable use policies so...meh? Lots of people goof off all day, but they generally have iphones (it sounds like a forest in the office with all the IM notifications CHIRP BEEP DRIP RIBBIT). It's funny though - I'm not immune to the prosecution of misconduct, though I am certainly versed in it. It didn't even occur to me it might be me - I'd rather not have a permanent record of misconduct, and fed workers do have forever records. Low chance high stakes? I won't know until (a week from Monday?)
Today I work out. Part of me thinks the working out is temporary. More and more people are noticing "I'm bigger." I'm also fatter but nobody seems to mind - including me, though I make fun of it and wish my pants fit. It's funny to me I might need to go up a size in underwear as my ass is far more muscular and rocklike. But...I don't think this hour or two workout routine is forever. I'm in pain all the time, eating for the gym...then again what else do I do with that time?
Normally I'm scared of this workout, but since I've built up my sugars for anaerobic prowler pulls I'm less terrified of the pain. I'm also not scared of failure - I'm used to it. See I had a shoulder problem that really slowed me down on bench - I think I've worked through most of it, and found I was far stronger pushing the heavy weight up when I wasn't just fighting the pain to make it happen (this sounds obvious to some I'm sure). With my deadlifts I've worked around my broken ass; this week I tried to do a conventional deadlift and the screaming pain returned instantly. More than half my effort on squats is just trying to not be in pain, making me go slow, lean off-center, and other issues that all are effort spent not trying to lift the weight. Imagine standing up (with 200-300 lbs on your back) without pain. It's making surgery sound like a better idea.
I also am more aware that the butt pain is in my everyday life too. On the stairs, picking up a box, standing up from a chair or the floor - I have a lot of behaviors that are so routine I don't see them anymore, like bracing on my knee to use my arm strength rather than just standing.
I'm considering pro-bono work, perhaps working with disadvantaged communities. I don't think I'm qualified, don't know a thing about criminal or tax/debt law, but have found a lot of legal questions turn out to have the same general answers: read what you sign, keep records, organize records so you can find things, and helping people see out of their self-forgiving story to understand the other side or what actions they need to take.
