It's all about me except when it isn't or when sufficient time passes

At Faire I got stung by a bee / wasp, at which point I gave out an involuntary loud weightlifting grunt. I wondered why so many people turned and stared; I sat down to check for a stinger and squeeze out any venom that I could. It wasn't until later I learned from Janna that I had exclaimed an extraordinarily loud 'fuck,' which might be why so many turned. Or my tone was significant. To my surprise, the sting was a short lived pain (my last sting hurt for hours if not days). I had just been admitting to myself that not only do I cuss far less than I used to, but it actually sounds trashy to me to hear myself curse more.

I lean on my confidants a lot, except when I don't. I still want to, but on reaching new revelations today I realized most of my friends are busy with their own lives. I have the ability to make decisions on my own, and while I'm grateful for the help, I don't need it.

Or I'm even more foolish.