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May. 8th, 2009 08:07 amI feel good, which makes for a boring post, but I thought I'd share.
The weather has turned - my windows have been open for days (yes in the rain too, especially in the rain), the sun gets up when I do, and going outside is no longer work or pain. This has a huge impact on how I feel - I like it when outside-world is no hurt. Thought I might be getting ill, but I forget I may have a minor mold/mild allergy, so this feeling is probably not swine flu. My weightlifting is not progressing rapidly, but I'm not facing severe elbow issues so it's not bad.
I have a Janna who has a me and things are going good. I don't really notice that I'm driving all the time to get to b'more or anything.
I have noticed that while I kept my risk exposure relatively small, that my stock gains on about 25% of the proceeds from selling my house have wiped out my prior private non-ret stock losses. Paper gains sure, but I also checked my main retirement accounts - they're "back up to" -11%, which isn't bad compared to that -40%. I keep getting ads for things I can buy, but...while I'd like a new car and can afford it, while I'd like a new tv and can afford it, while I'd like that neat thing that does the stuff...I don't need it. Every day I scan ads, most days I buy nothing.
My mom has just sent me candy in the mail. I remembered to do the GUILT card again this year.
Work is almost under control, and I'm getting much better - faster at my job. I finally feel like I'm learning the practice of law compared to just trying to survive or knowing law in the academic sense. I'm not in fear of losing my job, and used to be disrespected so much I don't really care much anymore. Keep calling me retarded while hiring your retarded friends and asking me to keep cleaning up after their mess - but keep that salary coming in.
I do see one danger - while I'm earning time off, when I finally get that time I'm so tired I just spend it recuperating. If 40 hours a week is so hectic I feel like I worked 60-70, then it's not a good place to be. I have started applying to other jobs, but I'm really on the fence about leaving at all. I don't want to go anywhere where I'm putting out fires all the time, being treated poorly, and exhausted when the day is done even if I do get a good salary and time off. My house still isn't cleaned up after the paint dust monster and every weekend while I want to do things I need to set aside dumb time for rest, both sleep and brain go bye-bye not even have fun just foomph time. Lame.
I call this good - yep. Absence of pain is good. Or is that reduction of pain.
The weather has turned - my windows have been open for days (yes in the rain too, especially in the rain), the sun gets up when I do, and going outside is no longer work or pain. This has a huge impact on how I feel - I like it when outside-world is no hurt. Thought I might be getting ill, but I forget I may have a minor mold/mild allergy, so this feeling is probably not swine flu. My weightlifting is not progressing rapidly, but I'm not facing severe elbow issues so it's not bad.
I have a Janna who has a me and things are going good. I don't really notice that I'm driving all the time to get to b'more or anything.
I have noticed that while I kept my risk exposure relatively small, that my stock gains on about 25% of the proceeds from selling my house have wiped out my prior private non-ret stock losses. Paper gains sure, but I also checked my main retirement accounts - they're "back up to" -11%, which isn't bad compared to that -40%. I keep getting ads for things I can buy, but...while I'd like a new car and can afford it, while I'd like a new tv and can afford it, while I'd like that neat thing that does the stuff...I don't need it. Every day I scan ads, most days I buy nothing.
My mom has just sent me candy in the mail. I remembered to do the GUILT card again this year.
Work is almost under control, and I'm getting much better - faster at my job. I finally feel like I'm learning the practice of law compared to just trying to survive or knowing law in the academic sense. I'm not in fear of losing my job, and used to be disrespected so much I don't really care much anymore. Keep calling me retarded while hiring your retarded friends and asking me to keep cleaning up after their mess - but keep that salary coming in.
I do see one danger - while I'm earning time off, when I finally get that time I'm so tired I just spend it recuperating. If 40 hours a week is so hectic I feel like I worked 60-70, then it's not a good place to be. I have started applying to other jobs, but I'm really on the fence about leaving at all. I don't want to go anywhere where I'm putting out fires all the time, being treated poorly, and exhausted when the day is done even if I do get a good salary and time off. My house still isn't cleaned up after the paint dust monster and every weekend while I want to do things I need to set aside dumb time for rest, both sleep and brain go bye-bye not even have fun just foomph time. Lame.
I call this good - yep. Absence of pain is good. Or is that reduction of pain.
