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[vicarz]

Missed the meteor shower
A doc today told me I'm...reacting to stress. Same as the last doctor, and the doctor before that. However, in terms of my life I am...I like the stress. I may have hated it but now it's got a certain level of comfort for me. What if lack of stress is stressful to me (you laugh) or worse yet, illusory?

I'm re-considering requesting a demotion at work, or seeking one of those easy jobs. Step down.

Why is it such a struggle to face the US dream? Balance?
Seriously, it seems so many are wrapped in the goal no matter what the work - what about just seeking ... what about focusing less on the reward but on the work? Why not just enjoy the less work and less reward? Instead of a decision to sacrifice what about a decision to let go and ... work less and enjoy the not working?

It's because she told me to lay down my gun
the fuck I carried so long
I wondered if she saw the benefit of pacifying determination and strength
or just the old fetish for fixing crazy
maybe stupid

There is this literary archetype I never bought
the suicidal bad guy
his horror bestowed upon us all as a sign of his pain
a request for release
somehow I never bought into legitimizing the actions of a douchebag

I taste blood in my mouth
that reality crashgate
blood in my mouth, in my nose
a discussion

I looked at some old pictures today
I considered telling the truth
I considered telling a lie

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_blackjack_/]

There was an episode of Silver Spoons where they tried to make the grandfather retire because of his blood-pressure, but in the end it turned out that relaxing caused him stress.

[fitfool.livejournal.com]

I think that would be my dad

[greatevil.livejournal.com]

Hope you feel better soon man.

[likethewatch.livejournal.com]

There's a difference between a demotion and reduced workplace stress load. Money buys chocolate, which reduces stress, as do winter vacations in the tropics.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Well it's a demotion from outside, but either way less pay. I just love how we focus on the relief we can get from the things money buys, but often fail to consider the stress relief of not killing ourselves for tropic vacation money. Maybe if I stepped down I wouldn't need the vacation in the first place.

[panthergirl.livejournal.com]

I voted 'less stress' when I took this job. It's had it's good and bad moments.

[fitfool.livejournal.com]

Is it possible to keep your current position but set limits on it so that you maintain some semblance of balance between work and the rest of your life? What kind of hours do you work? Is it possible to limit it to say a 50 hour week? What if you had kids and needed to leave and pick them up from school/day care?

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Honestly, I'm just spoiled. This is only working 40 hours a week - it's just the demands of the job vary tremendously and are not predictable. I may work 60 hours one week, then have time off for later. I always want everything done, and well, super early on rather than just pacing myself.

It's more the stress level, and the stress I put on myself. I can work any time - in other jobs you may just work when you're at work or not be so pressed that if you had down time, read a newspaper, or smoked in the alcove that you'd be backed up. But...my god, I'm lucky I know. It's more how it feels than how much time it really takes.