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[vicarz]

I don't know why I write, why I write to the people I know read this, why I write here, or what to write. I have a far greater respect, today, for those that hold some cards closer to their chest.

I just don't know.

I've called into work and will be calling in for possibly days. They are very supportive. The cancellation of the depo scheduled for tomorrow was a real gift. I came home and had a few drinks. I yelled at my mom, without justification, and she reads this. I'm not a wreck, but...I'm torn between my gaithersburg trying-to-be-masculine roots and my current reality. Brain is in the mix somewhere. I'm trying to remember all these details from which later stories will be spun.

Everything you experience helps mold how you see new experiences. I know what is next, and very much I do not know what is next. I believe what I've experienced and been taught / handed will make me able to handle next. It's easy. It's easy because it happens and that's what you do - whatever you do, you will do and nothing can change that. It happens and you can do nothing but face it or turn away. It just is.

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[anarcha.livejournal.com]

"It's easy because it happens and that's what you do - whatever you do, you will do and nothing can change that. It happens and you can do nothing but face it or turn away. It just is."

Exactly.




Other than that, I have no words to offer, nothing that wouldn't sound trite (*hugz*, etc). I truly wish I was capable of some deep response that would make this all even a bit easier.

[chanchala.livejournal.com]

"Everything you experience helps mold how you see new experiences."

So true.

[transentient.livejournal.com]

My condolences.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_blackjack_/]

Hug. So there.

[kelowna.livejournal.com]

You may write because it is sometimes easier to talk to an 'audience' than one person. You are stronger, more determined and focused than most anyone I know. Do not think being human makes you less of a man. It does not.

It just is.

Yes. Please keep in mind you have friends that will be therefore you - whatever you may need during this time of transition.

Whatever you may need.

I mentioned this to my parents the other day and they send caring thoughts your way.

--kelowna

[pastor-saturn.livejournal.com]

It happens and you can do nothing but face it or turn away. It just is.

Yeah.

We're here for you, okay?

[djpsyche.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry. And I really like and appreciate your openness here on eljay. You're one of the smartest and most eloquent people I know, and man the way you bust your butt, I'm in awe. Take a rest, you deserve one. And HUG! (This post would not have been complete without one)

[one-andrea.livejournal.com]

Remember that I don't live that far from you just in case you need any help with the condos or anything else that might come up while you are with your Dad.

[spunkmunky.livejournal.com]

Just know there are a ton of people (and munkies) thinking of you and your family during these rough days. Instead of flinging poop, today I will fling my arms out for a hug. ::hug hug::

[cobwellac.livejournal.com]

I'm here for you, as well, even though I'll be out of town for two weeks. I, like the others, wish I had something deeper to say. :(

[chadu.livejournal.com]

I know that I often figure out what I'm thinking about something by talking or writing about it. Maybe that's why.

Hugs, mang.

CU

[telie13.livejournal.com]

i'm sorry.

check your email

[cweaselle.livejournal.com]

That's certainly true about face it or turn away. Unlike what you think you are doing a really good job with all the stress you have right now. Remember that stress even good stress can cause problems. If you don't believe that ask me when I'm having a seizure. ;p Try to get some relaxation and time for yourself even with all that's going on. If you weren't doing well I would feel bad about putting you in my book.

[panthergirl.livejournal.com]

It's so sad when someone you know is feeling small. Grief moves in stages, it helps me to know when I'm in one(and which one it is) so that I can be aware of it and move forward.