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Oct. 26th, 2014 07:03 amWriting seems selfish today - isn't writing a way to turning everything people say about the writer somehow? The world isn't about me, I'm just in it. Being sad doesn't make me special.
I didn't go out last night, or I didn't go out after I didn't have fun at a party (do geeks all try to one-up one another in their conversations about trivia?) I gave in to the overwhelming desire to sit at home and play video games alone - not really enjoying them, it's sort of a compulsion.
I wake up today (slept in all the way to 6:30 - what a gift!) to pop on the internet to feel connected. Is that lazy, dysfunctional...probably good to figure that out. Social interaction in person is real; the internet is controlled, isolated, and the feelings it elicits do not correlate well with any form of achievement.
I didn't go out last night, or I didn't go out after I didn't have fun at a party (do geeks all try to one-up one another in their conversations about trivia?) I gave in to the overwhelming desire to sit at home and play video games alone - not really enjoying them, it's sort of a compulsion.
I wake up today (slept in all the way to 6:30 - what a gift!) to pop on the internet to feel connected. Is that lazy, dysfunctional...probably good to figure that out. Social interaction in person is real; the internet is controlled, isolated, and the feelings it elicits do not correlate well with any form of achievement.
