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I realize people are interested in the idea that eljay "is dying." If so, ... so? Another not really in person experience where we feel connected but are not. I used to frequent "DCFreaks" where a bulletin board held you to public ridicule and review if you were a twit. The twits got sick of being criticized, and trolls invaded the boards who criticized in volume when they lacked substance. So, the unmoderated board died and eljay became a place I "met" people or solidified (and broke off in some cases) relationships started over loud music.

I miss meeting people in that community, and while I meet people in some communities in eljay, it's less frequent and seldom with any decent criticism.

Facebook and twitter are so lacking substance, so incredibly stupid, that my current intention - SUBJECT TO REVIEW and changing my fucking mind - is that I'll just go off line for non-direct communications if the choice is going there vs. going off-line. Alone is no less alone than surrounded by broadcast-only strangers. Hey look, a joke/puppy...

I'm knee deep in the letdown. I thought this was an easy case, but I spent 3 long days prosecuting/defending in this hearing over the weekend. This is to the best of my knowledge one of the easiest cases I have ever had or could ever have, and ... I'm just thinking either I work too fucking hard or there are no easy cases. I know we probably won, but I'm not sure if we won or lost. Neither result would surprise me.

I worked like hell and won or lost I'm let down now. I got so wrapped up in that case that nothing else really matters to me right now and nobody cares about what I just did. Nobody is as wrapped up in that hearing as I am/was. Even I don't care when I really think about it.

Makes no sense. Alcohol and coffee.