Jul. 13th, 2005

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I think I'm just blowing off steam until I wake up at 3:30 am. Last night I just sat at home and watched TV like a normal person, thinking I needed to rest and cool off. I could have done something different, would have if I knew that I'd be no more refreshed than if I was active. Something inside of me won't let me take vacations, there is some itch that needs scratching, something more I can do. There is always some push for more, some basic dissatisfaction. Something needs fixing, but something always needs fixing, something can always be better. If you're not improving yourself, then you're trying to fix something around you, if you're not then you're just dying I guess.

I spent some time thinking about how I wound up in LJ land, what I'm doing here, and why. I think I subvert social needs on this thing - I hate having needs, and social needs strike me as unimportant. Why would I need validation? I look at my posts and see me, me, me, I and me, me and I, us as it makes me appear, all about me. When I started, I got hooked on roxy list then DCFreaks - I had friends on there and was dragged along for the ride. I made new friends through writing, found new friends through their writing, lost some friends, lost interest in others...but at the time, it was a good thing to have the internet to supplement the club interactions. Then came the trolls, a lack of moderation, and soon LJ because the venue of choice. Now I look at my friends list and while I have many friends on there, I have a bunch of strangers and acquaintances as well. Many of the stories I put up here either have no meaning, or have been discussed with friends already before they appear online. I wonder - do I just use this to fulfill my social needs without actually taking the time to interact? Is this really a form of masturbation, and if so - a healthy one?

So I watched Guns, germs, and steel part I last night. I learned something from watching it, but not from the content. It was a pretty cute show, but it was a cliff notes version of the book. They discussed briefly one of the main points of the book - how geography and native plant life either did or did not lead to agriculture, and that agriculture is why some societies flourished while others did not. In the book the plant life was described in great detail.
(One of the main reasons wheat and barley led to so much success was the fact that they were plants in which a single-gene mutation made it a great source of food for humans. Wheat is supposed to explode and scatter the seeds when ripe, but there is a recessive defective gene that prevents this survival trait and makes it worth harvesting; whereas acorns are bitter because they are somewhat poisonous but for them to be edible to us requires several unlikely recessive genes to mutate and the life cycle is so long it's not efficient to cultivate)
For a moment I was frustrated by this lack of detail, but then I thought about it. It was already difficult enough to translate this difficult and dry book through sheer detail and length alone. To turn it into a picture-show that would attract and entertain the masses, and still convey its interesting message, was one heck of a challenge. It isn't reasonable to expect the show to convey the same amount of information as the book. The audience is different; the medium is different.

So it's not easy to make a book into a movie. It frustrates the book readers when the story they liked as a book makes to to the screen - the reader knows more, and notices all the missing pieces. They feel cheated, but I think the expectations are "too high." I think that the reader should understand the process of conversion, and the inherent limitations to that process. Accept the costs along with the benefits, and understand they cannot reasonably be separated. Perhaps many watchers will take the time to read the more in-depth book later, perhaps many others who would have missed the concept entirely will be enlightened that otherwise would have been missed.
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I talked to my bud about the extended position announcement, and he says the person who extended the announcement wanted more applicants because the pool was so small. He never glanced at the ones that had arrived, only asked how many. So it's still going on, but a bigger maybe than I realized.

I'm freaked because this AM a front tooth appears discolored! It's not a bad color (I see the dentist every 6 months) but it appears some enamel might have vanished. This is not good, looks weird, and it's noticeable. Anyone know what this might be - did the bleaching damage my enamel in addition to my gums? I might have to see the dentist.

Yesterday on the way to the store a homeless guy challenged me to a fight. I couldn't really make out what he was saying exactly, but he got madder when I laughed. I actually thought about hitting him because it would suck if he yelled at someone that might feel threatened by him, but instead I just laughed at him and seeing that only made him madder, which was funnier so I laughed more...

In the store I was followed by employees and security everywhere I went. I didn't blame them - I wasn't offended - I was in a clothing store with a backpack on - duh! I'd follow me too. It was kind of neat though, being under that spotlight...just for a moment it was like I had long hair again.

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