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Now that I've had time to think about it and solicit many professional's opinions, I'm thinking of dropping out of the 'race' for the ethics position. It's really pathetic that they failed to make a decision. If they wanted me, I have 3 college degrees working on a 4th and supervisory experience, an outstanding perf appraisal...many things they could use to pick me. She is thinking of getting her first degree, has worked her way up from inside, and has worked the position already. Actually, when I think about it, while I like the girl and think she's a hard worker, I'm not sure on what level they consider us a close call. This might be her only shot at a 14, while I have many such opportunities (most of which I don't apply to - maybe they're mad at me). Of course, the liability now is that it looks bad if I drop out of the race, but this shit has been very demoralizing - not just to me but everyone that's heard about it is disgusted, including management officials.

In other news, Americans aren't the fattest people in the world after all.
http://www.themercury.news.com.au/common/story_page/0,5936,11450540%5E421,00.html

Cheese sandwich goes for 28k on eBay thanks to the people who vote for Bush:
http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=514&e=8&u=/ap/20041123/ap_on_fe_st/cheese_sandwich_ebay
"I would like all people to know that I do believe that this is the Virgin Mary Mother of God"
Now I'm not a religious man, but wasn't Mary not a Virgin (that virginity is the common misconception when in fact JEBUS had brothers, but 'his' conception was called immaculate since she hadn't banged her husband at any point that could make him daddy?) and further, I'm pretty sure she wasn't God's mommy.

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I'm fighting a wave of negativity. I've enjoyed this job for years, yet this one setback has me furious. I'm trying not to dwell on it, but it's hard for me. I am very demoralized. Why? I make a bloody fortune and receive praise here. I have it so good here, so much better than most of my peers - a good balance of $ and effort. It's amazing how you take things for granted.

Do I ditch the detail, tell my boss that I'm sorry but this detail gives me virtually all of the things that made me wonder if the position was right for me at this time while I try to do law school as well...so please let me drop out of this race I wasn't sure I wanted to win anyway?
a) if I don't wait, it'll be rash and I'll make a dumb decision
b) if I do wait, it'll cause more harm to drop out of the race / detail than if I just do it now before paperwork is circulated.
(as suggested - option C)
c) stick it out

The problem with option C is that I get all of the negative aspects of the situation, and the positive aspects are only a chance. I wasn't sure I wanted to try something new while I was in law school. You have to understand - the pace is _killing_ me. I am not doing very well in school because I simply can't keep up with the demands of law school while working full-time. It was going to be bad enough to start a new position and suffer all those growing pains for a promotion - but now I'm looking at all of the growing pains, without the actual reward? It makes no sense for me to do this - not now. There are other 14s, but I'm not going to do law school again!

It also circumvents the whole dignity issue - this shouldn't be a competition. People are coming out of the woodwork to express their disgust at this situation. I'm disgusted by this situation and trying to hold it in, but seeing I have 'fans' makes it worse.

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One of the dark secrets about law school is that at the conclusion of the last lecture, the class traditionally applauds the professor. There was an uproar last semester because the night class didn't know that, and when the lecture was over...left. How inconsiderate and uncultured of us! They wonder why people don't take the legal profession seriously...robes and wigs anyone? Whigs perhaps? Ugh.

Everyone is relieved that class is over, except for me who thinks these people are nuts. All I know is I have a final a week from Friday that I am NOT ready for, in a class I'm worried I understand less than any I've yet taken. I'm not about to hit the happy hour with everyone else - I'm in full panic mode. I have to study and juggle my job, when I was supposed to be ahead of schedule but lost my entire plan to a fucking head cold.