My safe...space....my safe...space...

[vicarz]

TRYing to be more open, to not live in them moment when it involves rejecting other people and their views. There is a lot to be learned from other people. There is...OHMIGOAWDgoat I've done this already which is how I got to where I am. Your views are BORING and for all the detail I am just being patient because I worked through where you are to get to where I am and...I'm being patient.

I once mocked a smart friend who relished having adult talk time with me. ME. I'm a fucking moron and regressed even so, but compared to a child I was adult talk. And I want kids.

So much to learn, and like the fuggin gym, it's not just learning, it's practicing and making thinking comfortable. Getting comfortable with uncomfortable but not just over-accepting...

Sigh.

I have feelings and they're as irrelevant as the ones I tell other people to ignore.

Comments

[alumiere.livejournal.com]

i love you my friend, but you are a ridiculous git sometimes. not a moron, but incapable of accepting that others are telling the truth when we say shit like we enjoy conversations with you.

and yes, we all have lots to learn even at 30mumble or 40mumble... i figure as long as we continue to listen and think we're doing well.

[anarcha.livejournal.com]

I once mocked a smart friend who relished having adult talk time with me. ME. I'm a fucking moron and regressed even so, but compared to a child I was adult talk. And I want kids.

Relevant to this - I realized that the antidote to imposter syndrome was realizing that no one else knows what they're doing either. It's not that I'm brilliant or particularly insightful, but rather that no one else is either :)

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Totally fair. We all have areas of expertise and even ability, but blind spots and weaknesses to go with those.