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Opportunist: If I didn't show up for work, I wouldn't get 4 hours of early dismissal leave! So here I am in the office.

There here, they're real, and they want to eat your face.

Yesterday I found some 1/2 priced adult swim dvds. I was on the fence about buying them, but I decided to toss them in my cart first and ask about responsibility second. I selected seasons 1&2 metalocalypse, 1-3 venture bros, and of course squidbillies. The total was $90. I quickly closed my browser.

Work has gotten really weird, really weird. It's been noted that I'm well known and respected while a series of management positions are open. I think I'd do well, but I'm not interested. It would help my career and all indications are this would be an easy leap into SES w/n 5 years give or take...but so what? What is that, money? Power? Prestige? I'd rather be comfortable with job I like and less inter-personal conflicts in which I have no choice but to play a significant role.

Yesterday my poor boss had to step between two grown fucking women to keep them from coming to blows. I don't want to be in that position nor would I want to be his boss, and finally I really don't want to answer to the chain of command I see my boss dealing with. I think to be effective I'd have to bury my soft fuzzy self and put on a fair but serious and unforgiving air, be demanding, and ultimately everyone in these roles starts taking shortcuts on professional decorum (rude fuckers). Then there is the blame game, negativity, and common economically efficient "easier to tear others down than to excel myself" ladder climbing crabs-in-a-basket activity.

Yeah I'm totally cool down here. Hell maybe I should quit and blow my savings failing at starting and running a coffee shoppe.

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oooh SWEEET. you picked three good ones, jose. metalocalypse ftw!! finally I will have someone to make references to about the show and they'll GET them! huzzah!!

also, very smart on your part about coming in so you could leave. clever clever.

Oh I picked them, but when I saw the prices I decided NO (that's what I meant by closed my browser - it was pre-pay). I've pretty much seen it all already, just on tv and recorded with media ctr (where I still have a ton but not all).

ooooh, I get it now. yes. I am in pre-caffiene state atm ;)

then huzzah for you having seen them already - cuz I like all of them! have you seen any episodes of "archer"? that is ALSO quite funny, tho I think there's only 3-4 eps of it in existence right now.

I haven't seen that one...hmmm...

OH der I still have this pillow thingys :)

no, you should blow your savings on starting and running a chocolate lounge. >;) (or maybe a coffee-and-chocolate shop?)

Not only did someone beat me to it, only with super dooper extra gay:
http://thecocoagallery.com/
(I heavily endorse this part of the family btw)

but in B'more my coffee and bar-bar upped the stakes with a mostly veggie restaurant:
http://one-world-cafe.com/
(though their website lets you know nothing...very odd but the place is friggin awesome "in person)"

There is something to be said about being the civilian equivalent of a general...

THAT IS SO FRIGGIN WEIRD! One of my coworkers is in the Army, a Lt Cnl I think but forget, and it is funny to think where my regular job puts me if called into service. I used to actually track that many years ago.

I'm a big fan of the Venture Brothers. Good stuff.

As for work, the world tries to push people into management tracks, but really if you do your job well and you like it, why get ulcers. It's funny, I've been a journalist for almost 16 years now. I like it, but this "career" thing seems pretty ephemeral. You're right. After a certain point, you make the money you're comfortable with and you have the toys you need. It's those people with an insatiable itch for MORE that I don't trust.

CEOs, congresspeople, Bishops...you can't trust any of 'em. Seriously, anyone that wants that much power and position must be a son of a bitch whether it's a charity or the mafia.

Yep. I've met a few of those particular sons a bitches. On the other hand, you can't correct what they will do unless you are in an equivalent position. After reading your posts for some time about this job, it sounds like you would actually be the one who *could* do some good with a promotion. Maybe you could build your own little section, and become the refuge for the nice folks? I work for the Division Manager who has done that, and he's fantastic, and any of us that are smart are fanatically loyal to him.

I've thought of that too - but I'm no Jebus. I like to make others happy, but if it requires me being miserable I'll just give advice and get my butt outta there...so long and thanks for all the fish!

good lord. what were they fighting about?

Oh very important issues - the crazy bitch didn't want the other woman to move her coat closet because it made her feel her privacy was threatened (we work in a cubicle environment). It's a whole world of crazy, serious.

wow. that is serious business. idiots.

Have you seen Akira Kurosawa's Ikiru (To Live)? It's about a bureaucrat who suddenly has reason to feel passionate about life, and he makes change through his own office. Like you, he's attained some respect and seniority, and after years of faithful bureaucratic service, he finally uses it to make something good happen. Even though people around him don't necessarily correctly understand his motivations, or credit his dedication, he makes a real difference. It was an inspiring story for me. Since you work in a bureaucracy, you may identify with the main character, Watanabe. He uses the strengths he has to make the machine work for him, like in judo. He's a great hero, because he shows tremendous courage, even though it sounds like there would be no opportunity to show it on the surface: how scary is city hall, really? But it takes courage to oppose will of the powerful.

Sometimes it takes nothing left to lose, or not valuing the sacrifice you have to make. I could make a difference in a lot of places, but I also want to make me happy.