Accidental Troll

Have you seen Akira Kurosawa's Ikiru (To Live)? It's about a bureaucrat who suddenly has reason to feel passionate about life, and he makes change through his own office. Like you, he's attained some respect and seniority, and after years of faithful bureaucratic service, he finally uses it to make something good happen. Even though people around him don't necessarily correctly understand his motivations, or credit his dedication, he makes a real difference. It was an inspiring story for me. Since you work in a bureaucracy, you may identify with the main character, Watanabe. He uses the strengths he has to make the machine work for him, like in judo. He's a great hero, because he shows tremendous courage, even though it sounds like there would be no opportunity to show it on the surface: how scary is city hall, really? But it takes courage to oppose will of the powerful.