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vicarzI'm giving up on snobbery. For instance, my little stint of attempting to have self-respect by not having sex with people I didn't find attractive, who would engage in genuine relationships or commitments with me, and had reliably the same disease risk factors as myself - greatly depreciated the amount of sexing. Similarly, I'm currently in the best mood I have been in for a couple days - and it is entirely based on coffee. Simply, coffee makes me happy. So does sex, but coffee is cheaper, easier, and involves slightly less risk. Oh, and then there is booze - that makes me happy. Sure, it kind of kills me a little bit, but being not happy isn't that horribly different than being dead anyway. Being a snob, I would forsake happiness based on chemicals - but that just leads to less happy. Sure there isn't a reason for being happy, but really how important is that? If you have to earn a reason to be happy, you'll be happy less often. And, there is always a reason to not be happy. People, animals, and the planet are always dying somewhere. If you care, you may be sad more. Real? You shouldn't want a real reason to be happy - happy based on reasons is only earned after months or years of hard work, and the happy can be quickly erased. Happy based on reality is hard to come by.
I'm a USian, and as such I can get a very inexpensive prescription for pills that will make me not feel sad virtually all the time, or remain calm, and I only pay like $10 monthly while the rest of the bill is sponsored by regulated industries (in short, taxpayers). I used to whine that the moods were not real because they were not based on reality. Well, fuck reality. It doesn't feel good. Coffee feels good. And if you don't like it, then I'll yell at you for judging me and my uncontrollable disability as documented with my Dr's note.
Crazy people and the mentally disabled - I made fun of them. I may still, but I may also join them. Sure I have college degrees and a job that pays a lot, but somehow I still get kinda sad sometimes and often feel poor. Most people know if they were retarded, they'd be happy. Ever seen a sad down syndrome person? Me neither - yet well all seem to choose not to be disabled when faced with the choice. Well, fuck that. I mean seriously, what is keeping me, you, or anyone from getting an overeager lobotomy, and being disabled for the rest of your life? You can even get the disabled note from the same doctor. Then a prozac prescription with a side of valium, starting each day with coffee, cleaning bathrooms during the week, and drinking every night? Or if you can get a really liberal doctor, you could be so disabled you wouldn't have to do any work - just be taken care of by others in an institution where you watch the same tv programs as your hard-working sad cohorts, only you never miss an episode. Seriously - that might be the happiest possible existence.
Don't stop thinking - that's hard, takes effort. Just find something that stops you from thinking. Take a drug, watch a show, listen to music, surf the net - actually preferably take a drug. Turn of the ability to think, easier.
Oh yes, don't forget being a sociopath. You'll find a lot more personal relationships in your life if you don't judge anyone or put up with anyone that judges anyone. Sociopaths have more friends - just don't talk to anyone who questions you and you'll feel happier. The more you care about what other people do the less friends you will have. Only talk about the things you like, never criticize, and while you are at it never say no and you'll be awash in social engagements. If people say things that bother you, just get quiet and see if they stop. If they do not stop, simply wander away and find somebody happier and funner.
What are you missing out on? Stamping your mark on the genetic code of society? Having a secure retirement? Doing good for the universe around you? Are you fucking kidding? The universe is just waiting to stick it in your hole. The more good you do, the more your kids will take your efforts for granted and piss away decades of your hard work. If they don't, look to the grandkids. There is always war, the dying environment, disease, war and genocide, or even food shortages. No good you do will last - every positive change you make will be undone. You might as well not try - give in now and you'll have vested nothing to lose. With no potential liability, no events will harm you! Identify as a loser and laugh at any other possibility. Relish your parasitic existence, and giggle at anyone that cares to do more, try harder, and toil. A few jolts of chemical joy will shutter any feelings of shame or guilt.
Oh god I hope we have a worldwide plague soon. That would be so cool (for the survivors). Imagine the entire planet to play with yielding all the benefits of our current scientific knowledge with none of the restraints brought about by scarcity of resources?
These things that sound negative to you at first may be the happiness you seek.
I'm a USian, and as such I can get a very inexpensive prescription for pills that will make me not feel sad virtually all the time, or remain calm, and I only pay like $10 monthly while the rest of the bill is sponsored by regulated industries (in short, taxpayers). I used to whine that the moods were not real because they were not based on reality. Well, fuck reality. It doesn't feel good. Coffee feels good. And if you don't like it, then I'll yell at you for judging me and my uncontrollable disability as documented with my Dr's note.
Crazy people and the mentally disabled - I made fun of them. I may still, but I may also join them. Sure I have college degrees and a job that pays a lot, but somehow I still get kinda sad sometimes and often feel poor. Most people know if they were retarded, they'd be happy. Ever seen a sad down syndrome person? Me neither - yet well all seem to choose not to be disabled when faced with the choice. Well, fuck that. I mean seriously, what is keeping me, you, or anyone from getting an overeager lobotomy, and being disabled for the rest of your life? You can even get the disabled note from the same doctor. Then a prozac prescription with a side of valium, starting each day with coffee, cleaning bathrooms during the week, and drinking every night? Or if you can get a really liberal doctor, you could be so disabled you wouldn't have to do any work - just be taken care of by others in an institution where you watch the same tv programs as your hard-working sad cohorts, only you never miss an episode. Seriously - that might be the happiest possible existence.
Don't stop thinking - that's hard, takes effort. Just find something that stops you from thinking. Take a drug, watch a show, listen to music, surf the net - actually preferably take a drug. Turn of the ability to think, easier.
Oh yes, don't forget being a sociopath. You'll find a lot more personal relationships in your life if you don't judge anyone or put up with anyone that judges anyone. Sociopaths have more friends - just don't talk to anyone who questions you and you'll feel happier. The more you care about what other people do the less friends you will have. Only talk about the things you like, never criticize, and while you are at it never say no and you'll be awash in social engagements. If people say things that bother you, just get quiet and see if they stop. If they do not stop, simply wander away and find somebody happier and funner.
What are you missing out on? Stamping your mark on the genetic code of society? Having a secure retirement? Doing good for the universe around you? Are you fucking kidding? The universe is just waiting to stick it in your hole. The more good you do, the more your kids will take your efforts for granted and piss away decades of your hard work. If they don't, look to the grandkids. There is always war, the dying environment, disease, war and genocide, or even food shortages. No good you do will last - every positive change you make will be undone. You might as well not try - give in now and you'll have vested nothing to lose. With no potential liability, no events will harm you! Identify as a loser and laugh at any other possibility. Relish your parasitic existence, and giggle at anyone that cares to do more, try harder, and toil. A few jolts of chemical joy will shutter any feelings of shame or guilt.
Oh god I hope we have a worldwide plague soon. That would be so cool (for the survivors). Imagine the entire planet to play with yielding all the benefits of our current scientific knowledge with none of the restraints brought about by scarcity of resources?
These things that sound negative to you at first may be the happiness you seek.
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Date: 2008-11-07 08:57 pm (UTC)I also start some sentences with "And"
Date: 2008-11-07 09:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-11-07 09:18 pm (UTC)it's funny... it's not too different from the dalai lama's recorded views on happiness lol... at least the whole "if you seek happiness "for a reason" you're going to be in for a hard time" idea. but also rejecting worry, the arrogance and self-importance of "changing things" or "making a difference", and refusing to negatively engage, fight, or challenge those who bother you, instead moving towards joyfulness or simply the peaceful solitude of your own company.
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Date: 2008-11-07 10:55 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2008-11-08 09:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-11-08 10:45 pm (UTC)What I was talking about was personal pain and giving up - drinking, murder, lobotomy. To take it personal is to take something different from it than I meant to write about.
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Date: 2008-11-07 11:51 pm (UTC)*sigh*
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Date: 2008-11-08 03:08 am (UTC)squeee <3
Date: 2008-11-08 04:18 am (UTC)but you (and i too) do need to learn to find happy in the little, simple things and stop sweating the big stuff as much
i also find that **gasp** i'm more productive when i'm happy than angry or depressed - so it's a win-win
and if coffee and booze are all it takes to make you that bit more happy than sad then what's wrong with that? as long as you don't overdo (ie: drunk drive, get an ulcer from the caffeine) there's absolutely nothing wrong with it - people have been safely enjoying these drugs without major side affects (in comparison to happy pills) for a long long time
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Date: 2008-11-08 06:45 am (UTC)I believe this is how we got the Renaissance, actually. The plague killed off some significant percentage of the population, and afterwards, the survivors suddenly found themselves with a surplus of time/food/etc, giving them the chance to get beyond subsistence farming.
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