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[vicarz]

My plans = fail. Cheesecake factory sale? Well known, with a line down the block and a 2-2.5 hour wait. No problem, we'll just go to Whole Foods, get some pastries, and sit in the coffee shop - meet me there. Go in, the coffee shop is blockaded by construction materials and otherwise inaccessible. However, this did lead to a dessert run to Harry's taphouse, which decidedly did not suck. Orange bundt, chocolate chip bread pudding.

Went to drunkhouse for V. Price. Worse than expected. Ice cream sundae was ordered with drinks. The problem with the movie was while amusingly bad, it. was. slow. There was no dialog or action! The whole film was padding, which is funny sure, but...wow. Painful. However, a multi-color-glowing-skull-sphere ball toy thingy made up for all that! The lineup for August doesn't look good except for this Wed when they show "Dracula's dog" for which the teaser is: "Dracula had a dog." I'll be in Atlanta during that, and the rest just look dull to me.

I don't get to complain about my waist when 2 desserts and alcohol are dinner. Tonight, my first night in the catacombs of exposure maybe? I'll be unable to walk after my "wtf did I eat last night?" post-office workout.

You know how when you have someone close to you and they can say anything to you and it doesn't hurt because you know they like you? Well, I'm trying to think of my boss' kinda-boss that same way, only she hates me. I just have to expect her to be derogatory and not be hurt by it. I just got a good performance appraisal, so I can't be fired for a minimum of 60 days for performance, 30 days for conduct! Yay security! See, why do I care if she trashes me? Why do I care my coworker writes nasty notes to her bitch-friend? If I didn't care what people thought or had thicker skin none of this would matter - I'd just go to work and do my job. But I care. I have feelings, and they are annoying.

My schedule is insane the next few weeks. I'm scared to make plans because I already have so many obligations.

Comments

Dear god no!

[american-arcane.livejournal.com]

Dracula's Dog is one of the worst films I've ever tried to watch. I really couldn't even make it past the first 20 minutes before declaring it so incredibly not worth the effort. Be glad to miss it!

Which Price film did they show last night?

Re: Dear god no!

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Well you understand this is at psychotronic, where the very object is to watch the worst movies possible? Price's film, straight to VHS, was: Escapes.

Re: Dear god no!

[american-arcane.livejournal.com]

Oh, yeah... familiar with psychotronic... just don't make it there much (as in, I think once). :)

Escapes... I think I vaguely remember that. Looks utterly forgettable (and someone over at IMDB most certainly didn't check their facts on the Trivia page for the flick).

But, seriously, if they're showing Dracula's Dog it better be in conjunction with a free shot promotion or something... not only is it awful, it's awful slow and needs all the help it can get to even be vaguely entertaining.

[empressmiaka.livejournal.com]

It's hard for me to picture you being affected by others.

I never woulda thunk that the Cheesecake factory was that....in demand?

[vicar.livejournal.com]

CF is pretty ghetto - though I like their cheesecake. It's huge in some populations though - otherwise they wouldn't sell ads in their menu pages. Yeah, wow. Also, from the outside it looks like a vegas bordello. Or something.

Oh I'm quite open that I care about others' opinions of me. I'm not often willing to change for such, but it's not like I don't care.

[cweaselle.livejournal.com]

I actually had a decent dinner even if it wasn't much & no dessert. It seems we ate opposite.

I shouldn't, but I do care how people think of me. I think in my case it's because I think there is so much wrong with me. I haven't figured out how to stop feeling that way, but if I do I'll tell you.

[turbogrrl.livejournal.com]

I suspect a large part of our caring of other people's opinions is the social demand of monitoring normalcy. The only way to quantify normal is by evaluating others *and* evaluating their opinions. Caring about those opinions is a common result.

Of course, people's opinions say more about their own insecurities and fears than about us. But it's still hard and hurts when we're confronted with people who mock us or dislike us for a reason we can't discern or can't change. Knowing that it is really about them and not us doesn't quite remove the sting.

[cweaselle.livejournal.com]

I can understand to some extent why people mock me, but that doesn't make it right. I try not to do that unless they are moking someone else then I just mock them back. I have tons of insecurites, but I still try not to take them out on others.

[chinese0phoenix.livejournal.com]

Actually 2 dessert dinner vs my bowl of cereal means your night=win my dear.

[frontdoorangel.livejournal.com]

"I have feelings, and they are annoying." If this was a slogan on a shirt or bumper sticker, I would totally buy it.

I think most people care what other people think, regardless of whether they admit to it or not. I was amazed and enthralled when I found out that a decent majority of my friends have the same feelings of anxiety in social situations that I sometimes feel. I don't mean this in a clinical, let's all go get prescriptions kind of way, just run of the mill, "what was I thinking!" kind of moments where you second guess yourself and put on that brave apathetic face letting everyone know that you don't care in an attempt to convince yourself.

Or I could be wrong! See...social anxiety at work.