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[vicarz]

today's t-shirt idea
and I love that I can make my own t-shirts for low prices rather than bugging my t-shirt making friends with my "stupid ideas"
back - JUST A LITTLE RACIST
(possible front - Self fulfilling prophecy)

Talking to a guy who likes male looking males in the coffee shoppe today (shoppe is cooler than shop or store, you know). I had to explain that the b-g emo couple sitting on the arms of the chair together was "cute like puppies, not like 4chan." He has the world's coolest mousey-pad.

Today is the first day in about 4 months I could have worked out that I am not going to. I have nothing left even though I last worked Monday evening. My lower back is still tight and screaming tired, in fact vacuuming last night made it feel like I just deadlifted again. My biceps are still screaming, and my elbow is destroyed. Oh, and my upper back on one side is also slightly strained. I'm running out of nonbroken parts, so as much as it pains me, I'm going to wait until most of my tight, sore, pain-filled, and weak areas are back to some level of relative strength. Al this strength training is leaving me weak.

Why I do that boxing dance:
1. I'm drunk
2. My eyes are closed
3. I use these motions when I work out a lot, so they're kind of habitualized
4. I am engaged in a fantasy that I am tough - just like you're in a fantasy that you're sexy, so shut the fuck up. I can't fight any more than you're hot.

Actually there is some meat to that. I'm not tough, at my best I am good for my small size. I'm not likely to hit, I'm terrible at not being hit, and I don't like being hit. This leaves me not a good fighter, and I care about stuff like that. The boys in SF who do that stomp real loud/hard dance are also pretending they're tough, or showing how angry they are (with the implied "I'm tough" built in, as though anger = action). It's a fantasy - most tough-looking guys are not. Some are, but while the guys in the ring / bar fight do look a certain way (modern pimpism) it's far easier to dye your hair, get tattoos, and dress funny than to spend years lifting, running, and training in fight techniques. Much of the time your bravado will keep others at bay.

But there is some truth to the fantasy of the José tough box dance. It's a fantasy. There are other José on the dance floor fantasies:
José is a pretty pretty princess. AKA the model dance. I'm not a girl, pretty, or a pretty girl. I'm even further from this little fantasy since I stopped wearing slutty dresses and makeup to nightclubs.
I'm a tragic princess. AKA goth dance, oh the pain, it is in my arms, see? See my pain? I cut myself with sex, see? You can't imagine the weight of my personal pain, see? Oh the agony, cut cut cut, see?
José is a circuit boy. I'm not gay, nor do I go to gay clubs (though this is still something I mean to change when I have time).

Running out of energy for this thought pattern. Instead of pursuing it to some sort of intellectual point or conclusion, I think I'll just take a nap despite the 3 coffees.

Comments

[dashrippington.livejournal.com]

I'm not gay, nor do I go to gay clubs (though this is still something I mean to change when I have time).


Which? Becoming Gay... or going to gay clubs?

[joanarkham.livejournal.com]

José is a circuit boy.

I totally read this as "circus boy"...

[rmerciless.livejournal.com]

Caution: Overtraining. Its a word you will get to know more, the farther from 30 you get. Trust me on this one.

[bentrazor.livejournal.com]

I do hope you weren't incensed by my post concerning shirts, largely that was borne of a frustrating conversation I got into with some dullard the night before, who opened with the line that makes my blood chill "So If I gave you a design you could put it on a t-shirt?" He then proceeded to tell me about several 'funny' tees he saw on T-Shirt Hell before I excused myself.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Dood I didn't think you meant me. I rather enjoy the idea...I think though, I have like 3 friends making shirts and they all have the same complaint. I could have sworn Kangal made the comment last, but then I can't remember him making shirts.

I remember Sue noting that she she had a broken foot it was a great conversation opener. When she was healed a lot of people were didn't know what to say:
"So, uh, you're foot's better. Cool. I'll, uh, bet it's cool being back uh, on your foot. Again. So what was wrong with it again?"

Heh. But naw, thanks for checking, but we cool :)