An unjustifiable attitude of smug superiority? Fear-monger! Crypto-neoconservative pawn! Hater!

[vicarz]

No gym today. No running. No exercise of any kind.

Last night started off with me true to my LJ namesake: I made a girl I just met cry without trying (or even being aware of such). And the night got worse from there. Then better. Then worse. Then better. And so on.

I am forgoing actual social contact today to sit in murky reading CP and if I can get this coffee into my brain fast enough, and I will try, I will be writing a speech for my dad's memorial next week. Many distractions here. Hope you guys enjoy the zoo - I'm thinking about you. Just, from over here.

Thank you for reading this. Thank you for being one of the people that makes it possible for me to feel like the things I share have been heard and are worth hearing.

Last night was full of people who don't give a flying fuck about my physique.

Comments

[grymnir.livejournal.com]

Enjoy Murky. Enjoy the fact that your flesh does not force your shirt to bubble out of your pants, as you sip your drink and read. Rest assured that they may not care about flying or the physique, but I'm sure that would change were fucking involved.

Extra luck, and respect, regarding the memorial--I don't think I could handle that, and I'm hoping there are a few more years before I end up in that position.

Oh, and as for crying -- fuck -- bloody social cripples and babies.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Yeah she was kinda bonkers I think, and I'm quick to accept blame. Not this time.

[turbogrrl.livejournal.com]

I will try, I will be writing a speech for my dad's memorial next week.

be kind to yourself in the effort, please, and remember: it doesn't have to be eloquent, it doesn't have to be complete, it doesn't even need to be true in a factual sense. It just needs to be true to you when you speak it.

[translucent-eye.livejournal.com]

:)

I think she says it well!

[dashrippington.livejournal.com]

Sorry about your evening last night.

Was looking forward to being able to say Hi in person today... but understand where you are.

As for the memorial for your father. Mine was the hardest thing to start... but once it started... it pretty much flowed out of me. I wish you the same luck.

[bentrazor.livejournal.com]

You're welcome!

and thank you, because you may have given me an excuse to skip my run today (but I really probably should run anyhow).

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Run, biatch! Now drop and give me 20! Now the left hand!

[kelowna.livejournal.com]

You made a girl cry???

Rollercoaster living my friend :/

--k

[desiringmachine.livejournal.com]

i want to ask what on earth you could have done that was so awful someone who didn't know you and thus should not care about what you think of them, broke into tears in response. perhaps it's not something you want to discuss thou so feel free to ignore the question.

i like reading your journal, you're one of the few who can write about mundane shit in an entertaining way.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

I'm fairly confident what I did wasn't horribly insensitive - lord knows I take guilt and credit where appropriate, but this just seemed extraordinarily sensitive. Just a normal conversation between me and a friend, and door #3 freaked over our subject matter (which for my range, was pretty tame). Georgie Porgie I'm not.

[peregrin8.livejournal.com]

That person was probably ripe for a meltdown and you just happened to be there.

[kuanyin00.livejournal.com]

i can't really speak on her behalf, here, but you did insult most of my friendset with misc judgments.

my ex-girlfriend leveled personal attacks on my friends, though, and by that I mean she insulted most of my closest friends or family members on misc levels to alienate, isolate, & control me. So, I know a bully when I see one.

you were just being yourself.

and I, as usual, was caught in the middle of it.

it was nice talking to you, regardless :-)

[cweaselle.livejournal.com]

You've listened to so much from me the least I can so is read this.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Luves me my Michelle.

[cweaselle.livejournal.com]

I'm not kidding about you helping me. I bet you helped me before, but you sure do now. You're better than an encylopedia in many ways & I was just getting ready to e-mail you about that sort of thing. You have funny timing as usual.

[antarctico.livejournal.com]

FYI, we did miss you at the zoo and noted your absence. It was fun, but we had to go across the street for the all important adult beverages because the zoo no longer sells them. This was about as retarded as the day got, so it was a good day out. I am sorry we did not get to see you.

[kuanyin00.livejournal.com]

i will have to admit that I found the night morbidly amusing. Then again, i'm rather accustomed to alienating people myself.

do you think less of me now that you know I don't recycle? also, all the criticisms that you were levelling... particularly the ones about dating people who meet x, y, z criteria... i did try to throw back. i challenged your assertion that you'd never date someone who was married.

for the record, i was not offended by anything you said, but you're rather adorable and if i were straight, I'd "hit that" as the young people like to say.

xoxo, thank you for dinner and drinks. come again and we'll work on making your visit, "sustainable."

[vicar.livejournal.com]

I have no problem sparring with you - it's easier in person, that's for sure. Funny, I forget how hawt you are ... couldn't help but notice Sat. We already know we're in each others "hit box" from a bazillion years ago :)

No I don't think less of you for not recycling - I'm the first to cut out when it is a pain in the ass. However, I always encourage recycling. Coz I'm a hippie.

The night was hysterical, literally and figuratively. I'm all about doing it again, with some minor modifications.

EDIT.

[kuanyin00.livejournal.com]

well, i'd probably just eat dinner with you alone. that would limit my need to hurdle through vast learning curves on the conflict containment front.

come up with Gus next time, or co-ordinate, for rideshares. It was wonderful talking with you, as always.

p.s. if you rideshare, you'll save gas. Also, next time, I could probably cook for you AND Gus, if you'd like, provided you attempt to eat my cooking. That would save money and it would ensure no food gets wasted afterwards. I'll figure out how to recycle your tiny little coke can before then, & perhaps we can talk about wind turbine power, & possibly i'll get a reply from Maryland State (or someone in the legislature) on how harnassing the wind via wind tunnels will not destroy public parks in Maryland...