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[vicarz]

Fuck responsibility. I'm home, drinking more, for no reason whatsoever. In fact, I left a group of friends in lieu of coming home and drinking by myself while playing old video games. I'm that much of a loser.

On the other hand, I started off at a party tonight full of educated and/or intelligent interesting people. And right off I was trying, and failing, to be all coy. So this really smokin hot girl asks this really smart educated hot girl "where did you find him, and where can I get one?" She then plops in my lap and I try really hard to act like I don't care. I'm so coy. Only, this girl is absurdly attractive and wearing a form-fitting tasteful outfit. In my lap. I almost ask her if she's gay because I think she's hot and whenver that happens usually the girl is flaming queer. But no, I'm on good behavior, so I hold all in check.

Later in the kitchen I meet her WIFE. Now, I quit the party and hit spellbound and told this story 20 times over. And to all of you, especially you, I fully and unabashedly admit - I'm not so much whining about the fact she was gay as bragging that some absurdly hot chick found me physically and intellectualy appealing. Sure I'm sad she was gay, but I'm far more happy that she was interested on any level. Neat.

So I left the party and hit the club. AND had nothing but fun. BUT I left the club to sit here alone and drink more while playing games.

Coz I'm a geek first yo. (gang hand sign)
(psst yes I meant everything I said tonight, to you, you, you, and you)

Comments

[cweaselle.livejournal.com]

Since you didn't say anything to me I guess you didn't mean anything.

Just because you go back to play old video games does not make you a loser. It means that you need a little time for yourself.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

I'm a loser yes, but yes I need a lot of time for myself. I tend to forget that...it's a strange balance, my need and love for attention/affirmation/interaction, and my need for long periods of solo time. In fact, that makes no sense whatsoever. So that's what I need.

[cweaselle.livejournal.com]

It does make sense that you need both. It is difficult to balance. I do better than most, but I have more time to figure things out. I think that all people have to find the balance.

You are not a lose. You might lose, but that does not make you a lose. :p