vicarz | (no subject)

This is new. I don't know what to do. I really don't.

This is my new life and it's going to take some adjustment. It certainly, good god, does not hurt, but all transitions are interesting and potentially uncomfortable. I'm writing...for the lack of something else to do and with a vague idea that I want to talk, but no real direction for that urge. Prepare, dear public, for boring posts.

I'm not training to be a fighter, but while I try not to, I have a bad habit of mock fighting on the dance floor. I take a "boxing class." I have weapons. I haven't sparred in perhaps a year and my coach has moved on while his assistant keeps the class going. I might do martial arts at some point, but honestly I'm not interested in full contact sparring ever (never mind the glory of elbows and knees). I don't like fighting - not one bit. I hate getting hit. Yet fighting is the mental imagery, imaginery if you will, that keeps me motivated. I tell myself this lie and believe it at the same time - lie to the pain to get past it, but not to convince myself that I'm going to fight. Yesterday I worked out twice - the 5 mile run was enough for my legs and cardio, with nothing else to do I returned to the gym for a full abs and upper body workout that I'm feeling today. That leaves me nothing left to hurt today. Still, I've eaten a lot of chocolate and drunk a lot of booze and only put on about a lb.

Saw brother's grim and it was as awful as I heard. I don't think I'm going to ever watch first-run movies again. I don't think movies are worth $10, the first 20 minutes are commercials and I refuse to pay for commercials, the theatres are loud for no reason, and I always have the choice of putting up with or getting into a fight with some jackass or 4 with a cell phone. I'll wait for people to review the movie and watch it at my pace commercial free for $5 at home later. I've missed years of movies - watching them 3 mos later won't hurt a bit today.

I signed up for facebook but haven't quite figured out how it works yet. So far LJ is much easier, and there doesn't seem to be much content on facebook. It's like a networking myspace? I also discovered all the best pictures of me are shirtless.

Today is the perfect day to fix that damn toilet. I bought toilet guts yesterday and have nothing to do today. I am not going to fix that damn toilet today. I might do the electrical work because I know how to do that and can break it into parts. Once you start that toilet thing, while it looks easy and I've seen each piece done, I've never done the thing cover to cover and often when I do something comes up beyond my reach. Biggest problem I foresee are the rusted bolts connecting it to the ground. It might only take me an hour start to finish, or it could take all day with multiple trips to home depo. I could do it, but for some reason I want to 'have planned' for that potentially long task. I've spent 4 point 5 years doing what had to be done. Today I might be bored, but it won't be spent on forced labor.