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[vicarz]

I wish there were more people there that I knew. When I talked to a fairly sexy blonde stranger who was um...enthusiastic, I knew it was time to go. Chronos is much cooler when you stay past midnight. Thanx Tony for the cds.

It's weird...lots of normal peeps showed up and tried to dance or fit in. I was 100% fine with them...they didn't mock the weirdos, though they did self-mock. They danced. They were awkward, but tried to have fun. I don't give a damn about their lack of scene cred...the fact they tried to make the best of an awkward situation won my respect. Neato. It's a bad night when I'm making the best of it and trying to keep an open mind.

I'm sick of faces lit by cell-phone screens. IMing in a club is like admitting that you lost, only not everyone agrees with me.

I heard someone from...5 years ago...thinks I'm misogynistic! I mean a skank I can totally understand, a filthy diseased vermin sure...but misog? Wow...it's been a long time since a mischaracterization, IMO, really offended me. I'm honestly shocked. Or she's bonkers...

It's ... I want another drink for NO good reason. Took my dad and his wife to dinner again tonight. He's not all right. Neither am I. No relation, just as it is.

Wonder if my "public book" approach is another wuss-out. Am I stronger for putting myself out for criticism, or a pussy for failing to have confidence in who I am, what I think, and how I behave? Age, wisdom...it all seems to be accepting the ambiguity in answers to any questions, regardless of depth.

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[justaputz.livejournal.com]

Shocked! Of course she is bonkers....

[http://users.livejournal.com/_blackjack_/]

The last few times I've hit Chronos, there have been incursions of mundanes, sometimes so large as to outnumber the freaks.

And of course you're not a misogynist; you only hate women if the are fat or unattractive.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Shut up, woman!

She's actually a sweetie, and we're all quite bonkers. It's just...weird to hear. I far prefer being a skank, I admit.

[dhairya.livejournal.com]

Or she's bonkers...

No, she just doesn't know a damn thing about you. That's actually quite funny.

Regarding the last paragraph, I guess it's all where your intent lies. If you are sharing ideas and externally processing, sure, it is what it is. If you are validation seeking or looking to boost yourself up on the opinions of others because you have neither conviction or confidence, maybe you want to take a closer look at that.

I don't think living openly is any better or worse than living privately. They both have their strengths and drawbacks. But *you* have to do what's right and most resonant to *you*.

Dude, your lil' fat sell is squeezably cute. *squish*

Yay dinner tonight!!!

[vicar.livejournal.com]

I want to push his lil head into his fat lil body and watch it pop out again. Pop!

Pop will eat itself?

[dhairya.livejournal.com]

*squish* *squish*

[kelowna.livejournal.com]

I'm sick of faces lit by cell-phone screens. IMing in a club is like admitting that you lost, only not everyone agrees with me.

Agreed. It means they are lacking in what they went there to seek -- which was some form of socializing. So they use their phone to bitch about what a crappy, boring time they are having rather than... leaving :)

--kelowna

[vicar.livejournal.com]

I'm torn...am I allowed to mock the ones that spend more time telling everyone what they're doing than actually doing it, when I am similarly living life while simultaneously composing LJ posts to talk about what I'm doing then in a later post?

[kelowna.livejournal.com]

That's more like an inner monologue. I am a story writer as well - when I live I think of the words that convey what is happening.

I think the key phrase is : be here now.

When people IM me from Chronos I tell them to "go home" or "go dance" or "go talk to someone THERE"

--kelowna

[ex-dasboot.livejournal.com]

IMing in a club is like admitting that you lost, only not everyone agrees with me.

Lost what?

[unapologetic.wordpress.com (from livejournal.com)]

oh god that cell phone thing. I'm doing it right now! I lose!