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vicarzThe good news is I got my first grade: an A- in mediation.
The bad news is I'm fucked at work. I wondered if being sent out here was a set-up, and now I have strong evidence that it is. A while ago the entire branch met and discussed a series of removal cases, and unanimously voted that they were not appropriate for the actions requested. I was complemented for my criticisms of the cases. Yesterday the acting Branch Chief announced that he had discussed the cases with higher officials, and came down with the decision that the removal actions would be taken. Why do I care? I am going to be the one litigating the cases. I have never cover-to-covered a case before, done one deposition ever, about 3 years ago, and have only conducted short parts of a MSPB hearing.
It makes no sense. I'm currently processing a few cases, one of which is a frivolous EEO case where someone is protesting 15 minutes of AWOL. This series of removal cases will be ... well difficult for several reasons I won't print. But something smells here.
I mentioned my concern of this novel case and my relative newness to my acting chief - probably a mistake. He said he had heard good things about my work and was sure I could do it. I also mentioned it will potentially involve several days of travel to Texas during school. I noted that we had many cases of more simple nature which might be more appropriate for a first case. He said if I was that concerned he could give it to someone else, and of course I noted that if I were successful that I would shine. So I did ... bad politics. If you don't understand how I blew that on two ends, well I didn't stick to my reasonable guns of telling them I shouldn't do the case. I also didn't just do it w/o question, which would have been a winning attitude. Stupid.
Listening to http://www.koolrockradio.com again. Some of the listed DJs are allegedly in DC, but they don't seem to have nights running anywhere. They all have myspace accounts. Myspace, the wave of hte future. Soon to be replaced by the next wave. Myspace sucks - it's very american. It has little text, but is rife with music (think ringtones), pictures, and picture links to all your friends. MySpace = The cow says Mooooooo... It's noted that morons don't write well, so you make them look more interesting by making pretty pictures, flashing backgrounds, playing music...it is all designed to mask the lack of substance like MTV. There is no dialog. I used to get random people adding me on LJ - haven't had that happen in a long time. I never looked at random LJs though, only linked to people I knew. I suppose I'll stay and keep writing, so this will be a journal. Neat to think that all your thoughts can go up in a poof of one delete decision, though a diary can be burned pretty quickly. In 10 years I won't know most people I know today. In 50 years hardly any, and I'm likely dead. In 100 years the people who remembered me don't, and are mostly dead. I wonder who throws out the diary of a dead person, letters, photos...it only delays the inevitable.
I have a huge urge to hang out in an old car that smells like brake fluid with college friends I never had (except for maybe you Kim, oh wait and Rob...Daryl, ok so I had friends, um well not as many as I wanted) listening to sex gang children, going where? A show, bar, house? That point where you're all on the road and everyone has shut up to hear the song. The illusion of a common experience while we all listen to the same thing while thinking of different things.
This is my summer, my vacation, and I'm tired. I can keep going, I can always get out of bed, I can go to the gym, I never miss class, I'm always on time, my product always turned in, the pages read, the accounting done, I keep trudging along. It all gets done. And I'm tired.
I have enough money to not work for the rest of law school. I don't see myself doing that.
I am having serious scheduling problems with school. I cannot seem to put together a schedule that works - this was going to be an easy semester. I can make it a good semester if I drop Business Associations...good god no one cares about my class schedule but I want to talk about it. You see, I'm alone. I'm in my cubicle-like-thing at work, with people nearby that I hardly know and don't want to. I'm here. This is my writing, these are my thoughts, but they are only important to me and a few people who either don't read this or already heard it.
I keep going. It all gets done. I'm making plans for Nigel and I'm Nigel. I will be so happy, so happy, so happy in my work...
The bad news is I'm fucked at work. I wondered if being sent out here was a set-up, and now I have strong evidence that it is. A while ago the entire branch met and discussed a series of removal cases, and unanimously voted that they were not appropriate for the actions requested. I was complemented for my criticisms of the cases. Yesterday the acting Branch Chief announced that he had discussed the cases with higher officials, and came down with the decision that the removal actions would be taken. Why do I care? I am going to be the one litigating the cases. I have never cover-to-covered a case before, done one deposition ever, about 3 years ago, and have only conducted short parts of a MSPB hearing.
It makes no sense. I'm currently processing a few cases, one of which is a frivolous EEO case where someone is protesting 15 minutes of AWOL. This series of removal cases will be ... well difficult for several reasons I won't print. But something smells here.
I mentioned my concern of this novel case and my relative newness to my acting chief - probably a mistake. He said he had heard good things about my work and was sure I could do it. I also mentioned it will potentially involve several days of travel to Texas during school. I noted that we had many cases of more simple nature which might be more appropriate for a first case. He said if I was that concerned he could give it to someone else, and of course I noted that if I were successful that I would shine. So I did ... bad politics. If you don't understand how I blew that on two ends, well I didn't stick to my reasonable guns of telling them I shouldn't do the case. I also didn't just do it w/o question, which would have been a winning attitude. Stupid.
Listening to http://www.koolrockradio.com again. Some of the listed DJs are allegedly in DC, but they don't seem to have nights running anywhere. They all have myspace accounts. Myspace, the wave of hte future. Soon to be replaced by the next wave. Myspace sucks - it's very american. It has little text, but is rife with music (think ringtones), pictures, and picture links to all your friends. MySpace = The cow says Mooooooo... It's noted that morons don't write well, so you make them look more interesting by making pretty pictures, flashing backgrounds, playing music...it is all designed to mask the lack of substance like MTV. There is no dialog. I used to get random people adding me on LJ - haven't had that happen in a long time. I never looked at random LJs though, only linked to people I knew. I suppose I'll stay and keep writing, so this will be a journal. Neat to think that all your thoughts can go up in a poof of one delete decision, though a diary can be burned pretty quickly. In 10 years I won't know most people I know today. In 50 years hardly any, and I'm likely dead. In 100 years the people who remembered me don't, and are mostly dead. I wonder who throws out the diary of a dead person, letters, photos...it only delays the inevitable.
I have a huge urge to hang out in an old car that smells like brake fluid with college friends I never had (except for maybe you Kim, oh wait and Rob...Daryl, ok so I had friends, um well not as many as I wanted) listening to sex gang children, going where? A show, bar, house? That point where you're all on the road and everyone has shut up to hear the song. The illusion of a common experience while we all listen to the same thing while thinking of different things.
This is my summer, my vacation, and I'm tired. I can keep going, I can always get out of bed, I can go to the gym, I never miss class, I'm always on time, my product always turned in, the pages read, the accounting done, I keep trudging along. It all gets done. And I'm tired.
I have enough money to not work for the rest of law school. I don't see myself doing that.
I am having serious scheduling problems with school. I cannot seem to put together a schedule that works - this was going to be an easy semester. I can make it a good semester if I drop Business Associations...good god no one cares about my class schedule but I want to talk about it. You see, I'm alone. I'm in my cubicle-like-thing at work, with people nearby that I hardly know and don't want to. I'm here. This is my writing, these are my thoughts, but they are only important to me and a few people who either don't read this or already heard it.
I keep going. It all gets done. I'm making plans for Nigel and I'm Nigel. I will be so happy, so happy, so happy in my work...
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Date: 2006-06-14 01:12 pm (UTC);)
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Date: 2006-06-14 01:54 pm (UTC)Today I'm hearing that the person who "recommended" me for the case was joking. So, either my boss is successfully pulling my leg, or he didn't get it. Yeesh.
It's been like an hour - lemme check to see if any grades are posted (aren't you glad they didn't net-post your grades when you were in school?)
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Date: 2006-06-14 01:17 pm (UTC)My sincere sympathies. I so hate this kind of office crap...It's exactly the kind of thing I refuse to learn to navigate well, and that gets me in the end.
As for the class schedule, and all the work: I hope you can make this semester the one you want it to be, somehow...
i'll happily take you out driving
Date: 2006-06-14 02:22 pm (UTC)that paragraph brought back some excellently stupid nights from "back in the day" tm
as for the comments about the journal - i find i really don't care whether other people read mine, etc - it's more about my need to get all this crap out and have it be accessible to me when i want to go back and look at what's been going on with me as i struggle through all these changes
and i too am less than enamored with myspace - i use it, mainly because all my friends in la la land use that medium for online contact, but i am not terribly good with it, and i totally hate the "blog" feature
Re: i'll happily take you out driving
Date: 2006-06-14 02:25 pm (UTC)lol
Date: 2006-06-14 02:36 pm (UTC)as for "I've been 20 for almost 20 years..." i sooo know that feeling, but i don't really think i'm any better at being 20 than i was at 20...