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Oct. 4th, 2005 06:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vicarzWhy does it suck so bad?
1. I've applied for many jobs, and this is the only one that has responded in any way. My education and experience do not seem to open doors (most jobs are preselected).
2. This job was posted once before and my friend asked me to apply. I didn't because I liked my current job too much, before this ghetto-bitch became my boss. If I had applied then, I would have had it.
3. I return to my job underneath the insecure abusive cursing yelling and on a good day degrading bitch on Monday.
4. I blew 5 hours leave on this, plus many more hours studying the NLRB and preparing materials. It might not sound like much, but I hoarde my leave like nothing else. I have over 500 hours sick leave stashed away, and have only taken leave for the past couple of years for exams, writing papers, and one vacation trip. For over 2 years my life has been work and spotty recreation tucked into an hour here and a 1/2 day trip there. No vacation, no rest, no recovery.
5. I altered my schedule in law school for this job. I hate and don't give a rat's ass about labor law, but took labor law instead of either employment law or discrimination law based on the prospect of getting this job.
6. The girl that got the job is in my labor law class, and sits next to me. She doesn't need a job, she loved the job she had at homeland security - but wanted to strive for even more. She is quite comfortable with the competition. I need to escape a bad situation, she's just trying to improve a good one. Every monday and wednesday night I will have a reminder.
7. All that anger goes nowhere - outside of lacing my speech with a few profanities I was polite to this steaming cunt in class. I want to stab her in the face with a fork (for reference see The cook, the thief, his wife, and her lover) but logically I can't really be mad. I'd do the same thing she did were I in her place, only I'd be a bit more apologetic about it. All that anger is just whiny angst - it doesn't create action...which keeps me out of jail I suppose, but damn it would cast an impression, wouldn't it?
8. This was a rare chance to break into a very secure career track - HR Director. The only other way to hit it is to step sideways and spend even more years as a 13, only working in HR to build some experience. If I want a 14, it would have to be more pigeonholed in ER or in this correspondence unit.
I still can't make up my mind about what to do with my current detail job. I think I want to grab a 13 with the correspondence group and just coast, but I really should grab a 14. The 14 will be so much more work though. Then again, I don't know if the job will remain so easy at the 13 level once I settle in. I really have to make my mind up this morning.
There is another problem - some part of me is realizing that I really should be unhappy that I judge my workplace by how much I can escape it. The less work, the better the job. That's efficient, but not a healthy attitude. Do I find a way to adjust my attitude, or do I need to find another direction?
I'm really tempted to return to my old job which I enjoyed. Despite the triffling bitch. Or seek the same work somewhere else. It had a good combination of down time and work that I genuinely enjoyed doing. I mean look at how much time I spend on the internet - and some idiot wants to pay me to make fun of and discipline people through writing? One day I'm going to try and get a decision letter issued with the term STFU N00B!
1. I've applied for many jobs, and this is the only one that has responded in any way. My education and experience do not seem to open doors (most jobs are preselected).
2. This job was posted once before and my friend asked me to apply. I didn't because I liked my current job too much, before this ghetto-bitch became my boss. If I had applied then, I would have had it.
3. I return to my job underneath the insecure abusive cursing yelling and on a good day degrading bitch on Monday.
4. I blew 5 hours leave on this, plus many more hours studying the NLRB and preparing materials. It might not sound like much, but I hoarde my leave like nothing else. I have over 500 hours sick leave stashed away, and have only taken leave for the past couple of years for exams, writing papers, and one vacation trip. For over 2 years my life has been work and spotty recreation tucked into an hour here and a 1/2 day trip there. No vacation, no rest, no recovery.
5. I altered my schedule in law school for this job. I hate and don't give a rat's ass about labor law, but took labor law instead of either employment law or discrimination law based on the prospect of getting this job.
6. The girl that got the job is in my labor law class, and sits next to me. She doesn't need a job, she loved the job she had at homeland security - but wanted to strive for even more. She is quite comfortable with the competition. I need to escape a bad situation, she's just trying to improve a good one. Every monday and wednesday night I will have a reminder.
7. All that anger goes nowhere - outside of lacing my speech with a few profanities I was polite to this steaming cunt in class. I want to stab her in the face with a fork (for reference see The cook, the thief, his wife, and her lover) but logically I can't really be mad. I'd do the same thing she did were I in her place, only I'd be a bit more apologetic about it. All that anger is just whiny angst - it doesn't create action...which keeps me out of jail I suppose, but damn it would cast an impression, wouldn't it?
8. This was a rare chance to break into a very secure career track - HR Director. The only other way to hit it is to step sideways and spend even more years as a 13, only working in HR to build some experience. If I want a 14, it would have to be more pigeonholed in ER or in this correspondence unit.
I still can't make up my mind about what to do with my current detail job. I think I want to grab a 13 with the correspondence group and just coast, but I really should grab a 14. The 14 will be so much more work though. Then again, I don't know if the job will remain so easy at the 13 level once I settle in. I really have to make my mind up this morning.
There is another problem - some part of me is realizing that I really should be unhappy that I judge my workplace by how much I can escape it. The less work, the better the job. That's efficient, but not a healthy attitude. Do I find a way to adjust my attitude, or do I need to find another direction?
I'm really tempted to return to my old job which I enjoyed. Despite the triffling bitch. Or seek the same work somewhere else. It had a good combination of down time and work that I genuinely enjoyed doing. I mean look at how much time I spend on the internet - and some idiot wants to pay me to make fun of and discipline people through writing? One day I'm going to try and get a decision letter issued with the term STFU N00B!
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Date: 2005-10-04 01:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-04 01:57 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-04 01:26 pm (UTC)I also know what a dissapointment it is to have your hopes built up, and then get screwed...sorry about that.
best of luck
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Date: 2005-10-04 01:48 pm (UTC)I'm only 1/2 kidding.
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Date: 2005-10-04 01:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-04 01:50 pm (UTC)the most fulfilling job you can find that entials the most amount of pay for the least amount of work.
I'd much rather work somewhere ridiculously boring and mundane if i could spend most of my day writing music on my PC and occasionally answering email or the phone.
Quite frankly, leisure is much more important than work. I don't define myself by what I do for a living, I define myself by what I _love_ to do. Unfortunately, I just can't make enough money to live comfortably on a starving musician's salary. So it's off to the legal affairs salt mines every day, and hopefully it'll be a broing one. (thus allowing me time to compose music... :)
-S
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Date: 2005-10-04 01:53 pm (UTC)I'm trying to be objective on the boss-bitch issue. Is it that bad? Am I trying to explain away a bad situation, or am I so spoiled that this one drawback is making me cry like a baby?
I bought a lottery ticket.
Thanx though - honest thoughtful advice from someone who knows ropes from both law and gov is really appreciated.
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Date: 2005-10-04 04:52 pm (UTC)