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vicarzYesterday I had just showered and I was yapping away on IM to 4 people at once (usually I'm not a fan of IM). I stood up and was shocked that the mirror seemed to show me with a 6-pack. Huh? I have been sick for about a week and not really worked much at all. I went to the bodyfat scale and it told me I was 13.6% (not accurate for my body type, but consistent). I checked again this morning and it said 13.0%. I'm torn...I'm sort of proud because I did intentionally watch what I ate for a long time while doing the cardio I loathe, but I don't feel like this particular week I earned a thing. It seems when I don't work out I don't eat either. I guess I'm happy about this but not as much as if I felt like I just earned it. I used the web-cam to put up some pics on the LJ-gallery thing . Feel free to look and mock me, remember I allow anon posts. http://pics.livejournal.com/vicar/gallery/00004h6w
Heather and I hit the "Modern Italian" fare at the new place in Shirlington...it was ok, but for that kind of money I think you're better off going to Grand Carlyle.
A fantasy about a 12-14 year-old girl:
Yesterday instead of going out I went to shoppers food warehouse in Alex, VA, to get groceries. SFW is full of a swirling mass of recent immigrants from around the globe. On my way out, I passed a lanky 12-14ish year old girl with her pink/purple hair in long spikes, spooky black flip-flops, spooky witch-skirt, and other punk/gothrocker gear appropriate for summer. She had two younger kids (dressed more normal) in tow. I wanted to say something but chose not to. So this spawned a fantasy...
I fantasized that I started a conversation with this girl, bypassed the stranger rule and gave her and the kids a ride home. I met the parents and they turned out to be old friends of mine. I wound up becomming sort of an uncle-figure to the girl, and helping her with advice through her teen years. She went to college and became successful and happy while still keeping her freakish edge.
Pretty hot, and possibly illegal, huh?
Speaking of pedophile freaks, I always felt stung by an argument I got from feminists of the angry sort: that it was sick to like shaved bodies and schoolgirl outfits because that meant you really just wanted to boink little girls. I felt less odd about those issues when I realized my gay and bi friend-girls also had the same yum reaction. Recently I noticed that when I actually see a super-young girl dressed in a sexualized way that I find it disturbing. I know in my mind that I knew plenty of kids that had active sex lives when I was that age, and that's cool if they do it together, but I don't see it as sexy. However, throw someone my age in a schoolgirl outfit with garters and I go yum. I think that perhaps the mind does latch onto some aspects of youth for sexual memory, leading to certain scents that make you go nuts...but that memory changes with age. I think those kids were hot when I was 15, but now in my 30s (even if I don't look it) I find that even my memories of what people looked like have adjusted to fit my current tastes. So perhaps the trimmings of youth are sexually attractive, but the real deal is not.
Bush lied (what a shock) about the amount of aid sent to Africa:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/washpost/botswana_s_gains_against_aids_put_u_s__claims_to_test
Basically, we take credit for anything done related to their programs, including program review and editing of documents. Funds are not actually exchanged and lives are saved by their own government. This is why I hate the government accountability acts - they lead to these sorts of lies all the time.
Yes, I'm putting off starting in on the research for my paper.
Heather and I hit the "Modern Italian" fare at the new place in Shirlington...it was ok, but for that kind of money I think you're better off going to Grand Carlyle.
A fantasy about a 12-14 year-old girl:
Yesterday instead of going out I went to shoppers food warehouse in Alex, VA, to get groceries. SFW is full of a swirling mass of recent immigrants from around the globe. On my way out, I passed a lanky 12-14ish year old girl with her pink/purple hair in long spikes, spooky black flip-flops, spooky witch-skirt, and other punk/gothrocker gear appropriate for summer. She had two younger kids (dressed more normal) in tow. I wanted to say something but chose not to. So this spawned a fantasy...
I fantasized that I started a conversation with this girl, bypassed the stranger rule and gave her and the kids a ride home. I met the parents and they turned out to be old friends of mine. I wound up becomming sort of an uncle-figure to the girl, and helping her with advice through her teen years. She went to college and became successful and happy while still keeping her freakish edge.
Pretty hot, and possibly illegal, huh?
Speaking of pedophile freaks, I always felt stung by an argument I got from feminists of the angry sort: that it was sick to like shaved bodies and schoolgirl outfits because that meant you really just wanted to boink little girls. I felt less odd about those issues when I realized my gay and bi friend-girls also had the same yum reaction. Recently I noticed that when I actually see a super-young girl dressed in a sexualized way that I find it disturbing. I know in my mind that I knew plenty of kids that had active sex lives when I was that age, and that's cool if they do it together, but I don't see it as sexy. However, throw someone my age in a schoolgirl outfit with garters and I go yum. I think that perhaps the mind does latch onto some aspects of youth for sexual memory, leading to certain scents that make you go nuts...but that memory changes with age. I think those kids were hot when I was 15, but now in my 30s (even if I don't look it) I find that even my memories of what people looked like have adjusted to fit my current tastes. So perhaps the trimmings of youth are sexually attractive, but the real deal is not.
Bush lied (what a shock) about the amount of aid sent to Africa:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/washpost/botswana_s_gains_against_aids_put_u_s__claims_to_test
Basically, we take credit for anything done related to their programs, including program review and editing of documents. Funds are not actually exchanged and lives are saved by their own government. This is why I hate the government accountability acts - they lead to these sorts of lies all the time.
Yes, I'm putting off starting in on the research for my paper.
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Date: 2005-07-02 04:56 pm (UTC)B. Oh, get on with you with your girly 6-pack preening. ;)