vicarz | (no subject)

It's the time of year where were I not sad I'd muster the energy to stick a fork in someone's eye. I don't have anything I think is worth posting, but I'm hoping whining in public will make me feel better. I miss the time where I actually met people on the internet - you know I still have friends I made on the Roxy listserv and DCFreaks? I don't think I've ever made a new friend through LJ. Is it time, culture, or age of my peers? What is the point to posting "It's snowing," "Guess which xmas elf I am < link pic >," "I went shopping today and they had cherry coke on sale" ??? I'm all about the whining, but god LJ and the internet in general is just...dull. Here I am not helping any.

I'm studying for my exam tomorrow, and I'm far behind (though I have all day today to fuss about my outline...or rather make it in the first place). For the first time, my job is sucking and mightily. I remember just a short time ago where I finished my projects early and had time to play/socialize. Now most of my buddies moved on, and I'm constantly putting out fires in the office. I feel important, but it's wearing on me and there doesn't seem to be appreciation for my efforts anymore. Job & school are sucking. It's almost a year since I even pretended to date anyone, and while that doesn't bother me on a day-to-day basis (no interest in fucking stupid people) when I look at how long it's been I get the heebie jeebies.

This was the year I was going to do holiday cards, still haven't even finished the list. I have this pile that were sent to me, guilt to inspire me, but I still haven't had or taken the time to respond. I want to. I also wanted to give mroe to more charities this year, but this year is facing it's end.

Nope, I don't feel any better. Back to work anyway. I wish I had something to look forward to in the next couple of months.