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[vicarz]

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I'm studying at home for my exam in con law tomorrow. I was thinking that my law experience is just another odd coincidence. About 4 times in my life I had considered the study of law and decided against it. I'm OLD now, too old for this crap. Would I have been as discplined had I done this 5-10 years ago? I nearly didn't study at all - my highest score on the LSAT happened to be what I got on the exam itself. It was a coincidence they gave me puzzles easy enough to solve for once, were it not for that I wouldn't have gotten into a good school and I wouldn't have killed myself these past years. Sure I'm gaining things from law school, but what am I losing?

Funny...my entire life seems to be filled with stumbling from one thing to another.

In other news, I have real things going on that I can't talk about in LJ.

Comments

[grymnir.livejournal.com]

Good cognition, memory, and neurotransmitter flow for your exam, the first of the season.

Also re: stumbling...

The majority never move, or if they do it is only when forced and approaches great life-altering emotional and psychological trauma.

The very opposite of the spectrum continually looks ahead for new opportunities and sensations, and so never quite has their full attention on the task or goal at hand. They are well prepared to move and do so frequently...and sometimes screwing those they worked or interacted with. These tend to be a small, though active, fraction.

There are a few shades between these, but you, me, and many we know fall into that of "stumblers." We're bright enough to be unhappy with the "limp it" group but not quite as slick, or brilliant, or talented (but close) as the "bouncers." We shift our places and try new things but miss some opportunities, worry about the fall out if we leave, and look ahead a little -- we put dissipate our energies more and so lurch and stumble a bit as we move ahead or on a vector of our more or less choosing.

The trick with stumbling is to recover and eep it from being a "trip."

This may not make you feel any better, but...

[pastor-saturn.livejournal.com]

When my dad started law school, he was in his 40s, had a wife and two (adorable yet demanding) children, and a full-time job that required travel. He graduated in 3 years, with honors. I'm just saying that your goal, while difficult, is certainly attainable!

I think that what you lose in youthful energy and free time, you gain in experience and discipline. Is it a good trade-off? Eh, maybe not (in the fun sense), but you're probably going to lose your youthful energy and free time anyway, so you might as well be working toward something! That's a cynical attitude, I guess. Blame my dad. ;)

Re: This may not make you feel any better, but...

[vicar.livejournal.com]

I tend to think that it's easier with a family. I'm probably giving up that dream for this one, as I'll be well into adult life when I graduate - and I won't be with any honors. That's awesome that he did that, but my current grades already demonstrate that such goals are beyond my reach.

Re: This may not make you feel any better, but...

[pastor-saturn.livejournal.com]

It wasn't so much the honors that I wanted to stress, but just the fact that you can certainly get through this. :)

Also,

[pastor-saturn.livejournal.com]

I forgot to say that stumbling from one thing to another doesn't seem as bad as just standing still.