vicarz | For a loser

I'm using my datebook for social events. This has actually gotten out of control. I once lamented that I didn't really have friends because I never had something to do. So, recently-ish I learned that you actually should make an effort here in there, use that electronic speakey thing with the ringing, write emails or at least respond to them, and...dare I say it...make plans.

About that making plans thing - no wonder I just go to clubs and parties. Holy fuck - I've done something with someone every night for how long now? I'm fucking tired! I miss shopping for groceries! Now, the 5 days a week in teh gym thing is clearly part of the problem, the gym dates Sun 5:30, Mon 4:30, Wed 6:30, Thur 4:30, Sat 11:30 do tend to add up over time - moreso with my new cardio bullshit.

So, I have friends. That's just great. Problem is, 8/16 I start class again. I think i'm going to stop fanatically making plans. I have some folk I've said I'm going to hang out with, and I am - but I need to stop the general habit before...well I make myself more tired than when I'm in school. All that fun, damn...how will I take it all? Oh woe is fucking me! So stop calling them, Shut up! or admit if you weren't hanging out you'd be complaining you were lonely. I said shut up!

I might throw a party before school - might not. I came up with a cool theme just in case:
I'm an alcoholic. You can tell, because if you drink alone, you're an alcoholic. Now, I'm going to drink on XXXDATEXXX in my house. I ahve lots of stuff to drink. If you'd like to prevent me from being an alcoholic, you can come over during that time. If you like, you can drink as well - I will be drinking. Your pressence will be an intervention - I won't be a drunk because I won't be alone!

In my own mind I'm clever. It's nice there, in my mind. Crowded even.