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[vicarz]

I think I'm getting sucked into law school. I'm contemplating blowing off social activities to study for my April/May exams. Why? Why compete for class rank? How much is too much sacrifice when I don't even know what the goal is, or why I'm working towards it? Why am I trying to compete with people who want to be lawyers when I don't, with weightlifters when I'm built like a bird, with fighters when I'm 35 and wussy, why am I always looking at rank?

A diner or club is just a few hours, but it's much easier to move the next day at 6am when you weren't up until 2, didn't have caffeine or alcohol, and didn't have to wash off and cough up someone else's smoke.

The weaker links have already dropped out of school, leaving me with a potential lower class rank, and this only barely in the top third rank does not please me.

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[jennbits.livejournal.com]

once i start doing something, even if i hate it, i am alway inclined to be the very best at it. it's pride or obnoxiouxness, oneor the other, but i can't overcome it.

[jennbits.livejournal.com]

oh yeah i forgot to mention though that i always hate to actually have to work for it.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

For years I've thought that I'm just working hard because I'm trying to get more slacker time in the future, but I've noticed that my spare-time fantasies have turned to physical and mental exertion.

[mpeace.livejournal.com]

Still trying to prove you are more than you were and fear you'll return to the past. You already know this.

*hug*