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I need to write something. My stupidity, my ignorance, my inexperience is now a crushing weight and not just on me. I yearn for my gaggle of best confidants to sit as a panel, but there is no advice I can be offered. There are things I'm supposed to know and need to learn. I feel like I'm caught in a tide but while clumsy I theoretically know how to swim.

I'm sick of metaphors.

I'm having a whole new fight with myself.