Oct. 23rd, 2014

vicarz: (Nomad)
1) BA in Psyc, with a certificate in personnel and industrial relations:
I started college with no major and no idea what to do. My choice of college was based on my interest in photography, though I knew I was not going to major in the art because it was no way to make a living (I worked in a photo-lab and met too many photographers to think you could make a living at it). I was intimidated by all the people around me who seemed to know what they wanted to do, so I followed good advice from old people that does not apply to children: study what you love/are interested in and let a career follow. That's great if you have a life savings to lean on or marketable job skills - moronic if you're 20 and poor. I chose psychology because I was in a psyc 101 class and found it interesting.

My family and related financial support fell apart in college. This made money and survival important to me, so I met with a guidance counselor, still lacking direction and being too lazy to make a direction. When I told her I wanted to make 50k or more with my BA she tried really hard not to laugh; she suggested the closest I might come was by focusing on marketable skills - hence the certificate in personnel which potentially made me marketable. She was right - I took classes in interviewing techniques, accounting, business, and economics that were valuable by comparison to psyc. More valuable would have been an actual degree in acct, econ...

2) MA in I/O Psyc: I tried to get a job and failed, took work in the company my dad worked for - a print factory. I thought my degree wasn't enough to land a good job (without learning how to really search for one) so I looked into grad school GMU was nearby and had a PhD program in Industrial & Organizational Psyc...I failed to get into the PhD program, but got into the MA program which was really more of a probation for the PhD (they were phasing it out). I worked hard on classes, but half-assed everything to do with research. I didn't connect socially and became kind of bitter...I call my MA degree "dropping out of a PhD program."

From my MA I was lucky to get hired in Dept. of Labor by a racist guy who thought I was more Latino. That was 1995 and I never left gummint.

3) AA in IT: I thought with computers I could be a contractor and secure in employment as a MA degree gets a higher billing and markup rate from contractors, plus my blue-haired friends were making bank in IT. The prereqs for the IT MA were the same as the AA, so I grabbed the paper.

4) JD: when the tech sector dropped out and my blue haired friends were taking lower jobs and losing their houses, I was having an awful time working for a lazy woman who saw me as a threat and was trying to get rid of me...I was taking the LSAT without a prep course, and looking for a job like mad. I landed both my USDA job and got into GMU Law at the same time. My plan was to quit whichever was harder, but I was too greedy and hoarded my leave in case I needed it and ... I failed at quitting. I also failed, for the first time, to graduate with honors (was close, but working and school was just too much).

So the sum is I was drifting around, willing to work on things in front of me, but too lazy to properly research anything so many of my efforts were wasted. I drifted around directionless and only had some mild achievements through sheer tenacity and failing to quit, when I could have made far more with 10% of my efforts in making sure what I was working on was a good idea.

Nailed it

Oct. 23rd, 2014 03:45 pm
vicarz: (One eye'd cat)
Depo went swimingly - doc was honest, inexperienced (first thing he said was he was a virgin to depositions, yes quoted), and when told other things the plaintiff hadn't revealed to him, said that those factors would have changed his assessment and indicated NOT ONLY more serious problems than he found, but that YES she should have been removed from the workplace.

No effen way. He's basically now a good witness for me, schwing!

I shouldn't mention that he looks a lot like my cute contractor. That would be crazy, right?

So, achievement unlocked but with an honest doctor. This is a good warmup, but may be much harder with a professional shyster. Still, very muddafuggin productive day. Worth the sleepless hotel, worth the crappy breakfast, worth the coffee swill, worth the 6 hours of driving over 2 days.

But speaking of crazy - some revelations from me being self centered, numbered because I'm too lazy to type:
1. The doc frequently linked immaturity with different personality disorders and paranoid thought patterns. I could draw a picture from his descriptions and essentially say that many types of psyc problems are a lack of maturity. This explains...well me and a lot of my experience.
2. It's true - eeo complaints are a sign of underlying pathology. Paranoid people he linked with illusions of grandiosity, also described as just being self-centered, a childish thing that is a normal part of growing up but lost as you mature. So yeah - thinking every time someone doesn't like you, or every thing you don't get that you want, is a form of harassment or persecution? It's crazy and/or immature. Sure, makes sense.
3. I'm less crazy than I was. I mean like years ago. So...I just had a no-ipod no-books-on-tape random-radio in farm country drive...2 3 hours drives in 2 days. That's a lot of time with my head.

I recall when I was distraught from my 2nd fiance, that it was after a long drive that I pulled my head slightly out of my ass (or begun the head-de-assing process). Many times since I have pondered and self-analyzed on long car trips. Here, while mildly bored, I sort of reassessed all the things going on in my life (it's busy with major life events! I rock on the stressor scales!) And...I have no doubts, no worries, no concerns. I don't have all the answers, but I'm sort of comfortable and mildly happy.

I'll take it.

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