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I just fielded a phone call to my home line from my boss whom I hated months ago. It's painfully obvious...well he just felt comfortable enough to call me at home, but in the last weeks and days he has repeatedly included me on top projects, sent paid experts to me for advice, and otherwise shown a pattern of respect (or desperation due to lack of options!) that makes me feel valued.

I am sillying it up, but I really am full of work joy. Maybe it was sad it took more than a year to earn respect...or silly I didn't realize the magic number was 1.5 years.

After work today I napped - been tired for days. I'm not sure why, but I may be sitting at home drinking alone tonight. I made some attempts to be social, but the drinking seems the fixture rather than the location or company.

I'm thrilled to recognize how little I know, but at some point it's just stunning how much of that little there is. Or how little ... oh dear.