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Ah. Woke up at 4 unable to get back to sleep after falling asleep in front of the tv before 11 last night. Turns out to be a good thing.
I turn to the tv and a glass of water for help debraining myself back to numb sleep. Adult swim fails to show cartoons and their ugly man shows annoy me. No early news - in fact the news is off for some golf event and nobody is picking up the early slack. Even BBC is showing a TNG I don't care for much. 4:30 or 5 I give up and make coffee. I turn to the internet, briefly check sleazy sites including facebook, nothing going on. I see a friend of mine did a random poll near my house asking where to go and for company that I didn't see.
Nothing.
Turning to the usual electronic buzz didn't pacify me. GOOD. It's time to start doing things. I need to leave the house - talking or feeling good online isn't real. It's ok to share what you DID, but running on about
the stupid shit I didn't do
or feeling satisfied inside so I
don't do anything
is an endless cycle of empty calories.
I need to pick up more social engagements, activities, and "step outside my comfort zone." Better to say just leave the fucking house and try not to be obviously creepy.
I turn to the tv and a glass of water for help debraining myself back to numb sleep. Adult swim fails to show cartoons and their ugly man shows annoy me. No early news - in fact the news is off for some golf event and nobody is picking up the early slack. Even BBC is showing a TNG I don't care for much. 4:30 or 5 I give up and make coffee. I turn to the internet, briefly check sleazy sites including facebook, nothing going on. I see a friend of mine did a random poll near my house asking where to go and for company that I didn't see.
Nothing.
Turning to the usual electronic buzz didn't pacify me. GOOD. It's time to start doing things. I need to leave the house - talking or feeling good online isn't real. It's ok to share what you DID, but running on about
the stupid shit I didn't do
or feeling satisfied inside so I
don't do anything
is an endless cycle of empty calories.
I need to pick up more social engagements, activities, and "step outside my comfort zone." Better to say just leave the fucking house and try not to be obviously creepy.
