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Nothing to say but time to say it
Aug. 25th, 2014 07:39 amThe drawback with a sports doctor is that they don't tell you the truth. See, I didn't realize the doctor was making fun of me. There is no such thing as a labral, so I can't have a labral tear. What the guy was saying was 'you tore your labia,' or 'stop being such a pussy.' How could I not have known! /misogyny
I have a really hard time spelling misogyny and almost never get it right on the first try.
I've also stopped typing nakeddrunksweating in work correspondence because I'm worried one day I might slip up and not edit it out later.
I don't talk about a few things in public: my relationship with Janna, family issues, non-jock health issues... So I do have a private life. I do reflexively not trust people who keep different secrets than I do, and most of my secrets are more about how they might make others feel.
I'm thinking of not doing surgery but still need to get a 2nd opinion so I'm not just reading varied internet accounts of labral tears, surgery, and not surgical options. I do find that my issue is one of the least-bad I've seen posted - but perhaps that's a reporting bias; people with tears bad enough to merit surgery are more likely to post about it online.
Today I travel to a tiny town for a hearing I wish I had set up differently, but on the plus side I won't be traveling with the jehova. It's been a year and she's still incompetent - do my supervisors know, and will they ever do anything about it? How do they stand now with her arrogant statements about her background now that after a year she still cannot process a single case on her own? Did they notice she spent weeks putting together giant binders to analyze our caseloads, but that on each and ever occasion she was posed with a question she would flip around the binder for minutes on end without producing a response? What religion do I have to espouse to be on the not-accountable register?
I wish I was more ready for this. I keep learning lessons though, and working harder. I generally am not making the same mistake twice. I have a work ego.
As much as I have problems today, I have a measure of self-confidence I cannot describe and could not have imagined when I was younger - and not young, I mean 25, 30, and due to my late law schooling even 35 (I may have sine waved a bit of confidence though, confident before law school, also confident before weightlifting when I was into boxing).
I have nothing to say but a lot of time to say it - not a bad feeling. I won't leave until 11. These hours feel different than the free hours I had last night. Last night was prepare for the work wee relax time, this is free-gift time due to travel making you work later relax time.
I also don't know when I'm moving into my house so I'm glad I didn't plan on that 4 week from a tuesday estimate some time ago - I think that would be labor day week or the following weekend.
I have a really hard time spelling misogyny and almost never get it right on the first try.
I've also stopped typing nakeddrunksweating in work correspondence because I'm worried one day I might slip up and not edit it out later.
I don't talk about a few things in public: my relationship with Janna, family issues, non-jock health issues... So I do have a private life. I do reflexively not trust people who keep different secrets than I do, and most of my secrets are more about how they might make others feel.
I'm thinking of not doing surgery but still need to get a 2nd opinion so I'm not just reading varied internet accounts of labral tears, surgery, and not surgical options. I do find that my issue is one of the least-bad I've seen posted - but perhaps that's a reporting bias; people with tears bad enough to merit surgery are more likely to post about it online.
Today I travel to a tiny town for a hearing I wish I had set up differently, but on the plus side I won't be traveling with the jehova. It's been a year and she's still incompetent - do my supervisors know, and will they ever do anything about it? How do they stand now with her arrogant statements about her background now that after a year she still cannot process a single case on her own? Did they notice she spent weeks putting together giant binders to analyze our caseloads, but that on each and ever occasion she was posed with a question she would flip around the binder for minutes on end without producing a response? What religion do I have to espouse to be on the not-accountable register?
I wish I was more ready for this. I keep learning lessons though, and working harder. I generally am not making the same mistake twice. I have a work ego.
As much as I have problems today, I have a measure of self-confidence I cannot describe and could not have imagined when I was younger - and not young, I mean 25, 30, and due to my late law schooling even 35 (I may have sine waved a bit of confidence though, confident before law school, also confident before weightlifting when I was into boxing).
I have nothing to say but a lot of time to say it - not a bad feeling. I won't leave until 11. These hours feel different than the free hours I had last night. Last night was prepare for the work wee relax time, this is free-gift time due to travel making you work later relax time.
I also don't know when I'm moving into my house so I'm glad I didn't plan on that 4 week from a tuesday estimate some time ago - I think that would be labor day week or the following weekend.
