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Aug. 2nd, 2014 06:56 am(written days ago and not completed)
Stupid judge hasn't cancelled this hearing even though she's been notified it settled - however to her credit, the Complainant has yet to produce a signed agreement he said he had and would sign. So I'm going to Kansas over the weekend. It's a huge waste
(would be anyway, but with some scheduling it wouldn't waste 5 people's 5 days necessarily)
So the Judge did cancel the hearing and move the other one to Monday - whew. I'm "stuck" in Kansas, and taking full advantage of the rest. Sure, I'm living out of a hotel for 5 days or more - but the case is low stakes, well prepared, and can't eat up more than 8 hours of the weekend. This leaves me a minimum of 24 hours fuckaroundtime. I can't clean - not my house. I can't go out with friends, run around with my gf, work on my dc house, do my political crap - nothing. I'm. Stuck. Here. I can read, tv, play with this, hell go to a library - but otherwise I'm quite limited. Good. I will get bored and that's wonderful.
I do work out today - $10 to work out at the YMCA. I'm going to squat but...
I need surgery (as posted to facebook). I was going to write more about that here, but I saw the doc and he showed me on the movie-like MRI that I have a (labral tear?) so some of the (tendon?) in the ball and socket is torn from the bone, getting worse, and as it gets worse I've started losing cartilage. I would be fine for years if I didn't lift weights or stupidly heavy ones, but eventually I'd develop arthritis. Not only do I want to age well, I want to be strong as I can now. I will be meeting with the surgeon who is purportedly one of the 6 best in the country (though given the serious nature I was encouraged to get a 2nd opinion - but warned of things I might hear, what they mean, and why those are not good as they sound at first). The good news is endoscopic advances mean not peeling back all my meat and tearing the ball and socket apart on the table; not as good is it's still surgery and recovery time is ballpark 4 weeks to function, 8 weeks to starting back at the gym.
Even if I do nothing, I have moving 3d pictures of my groin. I was joking about my ass, but for reals y'all...I have 3d pics up and down, front to back, of my entire body from thighs to belly. I can see inside my junk, and drag the pictures back and forth to see inside me. I feel like I've one-upped porn - that's so last decade. Skin is for old buggers - I want to see inside the meat baby!
I'm in a hotel in Kansas. I currently look forward to being bored. Things to do here, well last night I had beer and pizza alone while reading the beginning of "S Street Rising." I'm so lawyered now I started poking holes in his story from the start; symptoms of BS include describing things in artistic detail that nobody thinks or says in real world experiences ("the shadows drew across the sidewalk, arching to the..."), not taking responsibility for your own actions, describing your first crack whore as stunningly beautiful...I don't know how much is artistic liberty, lying to yourself, imperfect memory, or flat-out BS but I no longer accept any stories without engaging in hole poking. Remind me to balance my fairly new-found skill with spoiling possible fun (for god's sake I ask to be allowed to speak in hyperbole - extend that right to others) or missing the effect of a narrative while I question rather than listen and reflect later.
I'm in a hotel in Kansas. What can I do. My workout today will be murderous and long, but I have to temper my workout with the knowledge that if my ass hurts, it's not just a nerve or a muscle imbalance I can fix with special modifications and training, it's not something I can fudge, it's me needing surgery and doing more damage. I can read but want to pace myself so I don't wind up bored on my flight back. I will work for free, but I'm really well prepared and my notes from witness prep will not take long to incorporate into my hearing sketch; my exhibits are tabbed and organized - plus now I've had rehearsal with them once already; I can catch up with all my work off the clock; I could shop in Target, walmart, sears, jcpenny same as at home; I can watch cable tv for hours; I will nap...I will run out of nothings to do. I will be bored, and potentially relaxed. I can't erase time by playing my old video game (sigh).
Maybe I could think, but I think that's more a during other things activity.
Mmm. I'll be bored. Sweet delicious relaxed boredom.
Stupid judge hasn't cancelled this hearing even though she's been notified it settled - however to her credit, the Complainant has yet to produce a signed agreement he said he had and would sign. So I'm going to Kansas over the weekend. It's a huge waste
(would be anyway, but with some scheduling it wouldn't waste 5 people's 5 days necessarily)
So the Judge did cancel the hearing and move the other one to Monday - whew. I'm "stuck" in Kansas, and taking full advantage of the rest. Sure, I'm living out of a hotel for 5 days or more - but the case is low stakes, well prepared, and can't eat up more than 8 hours of the weekend. This leaves me a minimum of 24 hours fuckaroundtime. I can't clean - not my house. I can't go out with friends, run around with my gf, work on my dc house, do my political crap - nothing. I'm. Stuck. Here. I can read, tv, play with this, hell go to a library - but otherwise I'm quite limited. Good. I will get bored and that's wonderful.
I do work out today - $10 to work out at the YMCA. I'm going to squat but...
I need surgery (as posted to facebook). I was going to write more about that here, but I saw the doc and he showed me on the movie-like MRI that I have a (labral tear?) so some of the (tendon?) in the ball and socket is torn from the bone, getting worse, and as it gets worse I've started losing cartilage. I would be fine for years if I didn't lift weights or stupidly heavy ones, but eventually I'd develop arthritis. Not only do I want to age well, I want to be strong as I can now. I will be meeting with the surgeon who is purportedly one of the 6 best in the country (though given the serious nature I was encouraged to get a 2nd opinion - but warned of things I might hear, what they mean, and why those are not good as they sound at first). The good news is endoscopic advances mean not peeling back all my meat and tearing the ball and socket apart on the table; not as good is it's still surgery and recovery time is ballpark 4 weeks to function, 8 weeks to starting back at the gym.
Even if I do nothing, I have moving 3d pictures of my groin. I was joking about my ass, but for reals y'all...I have 3d pics up and down, front to back, of my entire body from thighs to belly. I can see inside my junk, and drag the pictures back and forth to see inside me. I feel like I've one-upped porn - that's so last decade. Skin is for old buggers - I want to see inside the meat baby!
I'm in a hotel in Kansas. I currently look forward to being bored. Things to do here, well last night I had beer and pizza alone while reading the beginning of "S Street Rising." I'm so lawyered now I started poking holes in his story from the start; symptoms of BS include describing things in artistic detail that nobody thinks or says in real world experiences ("the shadows drew across the sidewalk, arching to the..."), not taking responsibility for your own actions, describing your first crack whore as stunningly beautiful...I don't know how much is artistic liberty, lying to yourself, imperfect memory, or flat-out BS but I no longer accept any stories without engaging in hole poking. Remind me to balance my fairly new-found skill with spoiling possible fun (for god's sake I ask to be allowed to speak in hyperbole - extend that right to others) or missing the effect of a narrative while I question rather than listen and reflect later.
I'm in a hotel in Kansas. What can I do. My workout today will be murderous and long, but I have to temper my workout with the knowledge that if my ass hurts, it's not just a nerve or a muscle imbalance I can fix with special modifications and training, it's not something I can fudge, it's me needing surgery and doing more damage. I can read but want to pace myself so I don't wind up bored on my flight back. I will work for free, but I'm really well prepared and my notes from witness prep will not take long to incorporate into my hearing sketch; my exhibits are tabbed and organized - plus now I've had rehearsal with them once already; I can catch up with all my work off the clock; I could shop in Target, walmart, sears, jcpenny same as at home; I can watch cable tv for hours; I will nap...I will run out of nothings to do. I will be bored, and potentially relaxed. I can't erase time by playing my old video game (sigh).
Maybe I could think, but I think that's more a during other things activity.
Mmm. I'll be bored. Sweet delicious relaxed boredom.
