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Whining about work and.
Jul. 22nd, 2014 12:09 pmYay my fucking job. So I am delighted to not have succeeded in getting an earlier flight, so I get to spend 4 more hours in an airport. I got all wrapped up in work when really this was supposed to be an easy, a gift of, a trip. I just hit my work stride and work hard as hell - though by far this was one of my more enjoyable trips to Minneapolis.
Except it also wasn’t. First, I’m crazy. But beyond that they were shutting down half the office and moving everyone to one half of the building - everybody was miserable, overworked, out of control, and demoralized - “morale is in the toilet.” I used to love going to that office as everyone was hard working but also happy and team oriented. Sadly our current chain of command has been dumping more work on them, removing and failing to replenish people & resources, while blasting them with criticism. At the same time obvious manipulation of performance metrics rewards the abuses. My favorite abuse is bragging that they reduced the number of days to hire; to do this they issued an order than any vacancy over x days old would be automatically cancelled! Everyone seems to know about it, yet nobody was punished for that VA like manipulation of data which harmed the Agency for the benefit of somebody’s performance rating.
I had several conversations with old friends - all frankly miserable. Each and every one. At the same time, we talked about the new top-level shake up, and re-wonder how the place is run by someone who was merely a DM a short time ago (normally there are quite a few positions/layers between those ranks). That same fellow reportedly has stated he wants to eliminate all schedule flexibility, and when he was not able to remove flexiplae, wants to remove people’s ability to work at home fri or mon. Just...nothing but dick moves, but no accountability.
Yet right now my job is relatively easy. I think I’m just waiting until things start to suck and only then doing a job search - I also really don’t feel like I can take that on right now with the house renovation still going on. Mostly I just hate applying for jobs and fear the devil I don’t know. But as I listen to others and read the broadcasts, all signs are bad. Do I seek to leave an easy job with good pay because it is in an autocratic organization? How long until we are signing loyalty oaths in the mess hall?
This was another trip where I made a lot of friends for noting that I had heard some bad things about some people, but had not had those same experiences myself, and also for giving tons of tips of ways to CYA with emails and the like. I really do care, it does show, and people notice...but I’m not sure how much good that’ll do me or anyone else.
At home some do-gooder wants to put public housing projects next to my house, and while I’m all pc and no nimby, as I’m spending close to a million saved dollars (saved - I’ve eaten spaghetti out of a pot for 20 years to have the money to do this, and much of it is on credit), I do not want a fucking gangland ruining and possibly taking my life like the other public housing projects in the city. For an easy week shit everything feels so fucking heavy right now.
I didn’t know why I drank 3 margaritas last night, alone (although I secretly/subtly invited company who wasn’t interested) (and company that couldn't possibly come), but looking back the pressures seems shockingly clear. That was prescription mood altering drinking. I was dragged down with the fact an office full of people was miserable for no reason. I doesn't make me happy that my position is better, and it may not be for long anyway.
I like being liked. Lots.
Except it also wasn’t. First, I’m crazy. But beyond that they were shutting down half the office and moving everyone to one half of the building - everybody was miserable, overworked, out of control, and demoralized - “morale is in the toilet.” I used to love going to that office as everyone was hard working but also happy and team oriented. Sadly our current chain of command has been dumping more work on them, removing and failing to replenish people & resources, while blasting them with criticism. At the same time obvious manipulation of performance metrics rewards the abuses. My favorite abuse is bragging that they reduced the number of days to hire; to do this they issued an order than any vacancy over x days old would be automatically cancelled! Everyone seems to know about it, yet nobody was punished for that VA like manipulation of data which harmed the Agency for the benefit of somebody’s performance rating.
I had several conversations with old friends - all frankly miserable. Each and every one. At the same time, we talked about the new top-level shake up, and re-wonder how the place is run by someone who was merely a DM a short time ago (normally there are quite a few positions/layers between those ranks). That same fellow reportedly has stated he wants to eliminate all schedule flexibility, and when he was not able to remove flexiplae, wants to remove people’s ability to work at home fri or mon. Just...nothing but dick moves, but no accountability.
Yet right now my job is relatively easy. I think I’m just waiting until things start to suck and only then doing a job search - I also really don’t feel like I can take that on right now with the house renovation still going on. Mostly I just hate applying for jobs and fear the devil I don’t know. But as I listen to others and read the broadcasts, all signs are bad. Do I seek to leave an easy job with good pay because it is in an autocratic organization? How long until we are signing loyalty oaths in the mess hall?
This was another trip where I made a lot of friends for noting that I had heard some bad things about some people, but had not had those same experiences myself, and also for giving tons of tips of ways to CYA with emails and the like. I really do care, it does show, and people notice...but I’m not sure how much good that’ll do me or anyone else.
At home some do-gooder wants to put public housing projects next to my house, and while I’m all pc and no nimby, as I’m spending close to a million saved dollars (saved - I’ve eaten spaghetti out of a pot for 20 years to have the money to do this, and much of it is on credit), I do not want a fucking gangland ruining and possibly taking my life like the other public housing projects in the city. For an easy week shit everything feels so fucking heavy right now.
I didn’t know why I drank 3 margaritas last night, alone (although I secretly/subtly invited company who wasn’t interested) (and company that couldn't possibly come), but looking back the pressures seems shockingly clear. That was prescription mood altering drinking. I was dragged down with the fact an office full of people was miserable for no reason. I doesn't make me happy that my position is better, and it may not be for long anyway.
I like being liked. Lots.
