Self centered

Hello I'm sick. Weird, got super sick super fast and then really sick...but seem to be recovering super fast. Not sure how I feel about that - similar issue happened 7 mos ago. I AM NOT IMMUNE COMPROMISED or not that any testing has ever identified.

Speaking of, I try not to go out sick in public in case others are immune compromised - it's hard to raise that issue without revealing other people's personal details, so I announce all health issues and laugh through any reaction while respecting any distance or precaution.

But I'm 100% self absorbed right now. When people get old they talk about their ailments, but I don't think it's because they're old - it's because they're in pain and when you're in pain that's all the fuck there is. Nothing else matters.

Sure a teen rights writes about angst - but that's their pain. An old man's back, a woman's foot, a child's barriers to independence? All the same thing perhaps.

But right now I just want to be not in pain and the world can just poof until then.

Edit - I can't believe I wrote rights in lieu of writes. I'm shaming myself on purpose.