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GETTING LAID
May. 19th, 2011 05:50 pmI'm super sensitive or creeped out by the married-guy-trolling-for-poon-while-on-work-travel. I work with a
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who I used to travel with. He not only was the dirty old man who hit on the hotel bar waitress, but he uses several fake profiles on dating websites (I caught him online as "Paul" last week) and has advised me how to use various services to get laid - and the most successful lies to tell to do it. Same guy advised me on which were the best mail order brides. It's not like he's the only sleazeball out there, as we see with the IMF and CA's in-home gubinator. That horrible behavior is common, quite common.
But I'm also a whore - just an honest fun-loving whore. Or I used to be. I used to travel and the idea of hooking up with someone in a strange city was rather appealing, though it's never happened except when I was with friends so there was some common type of introduction or um...endorsement? I never hit on anyone while on travel - I'm kind of scared of eye contact which seems to preclude many meets. I'm far more interested in not-offending people, not aggressing, not making anyone uncomfortable than taking those risks for a potential hook up.
I'm in Atlanta where people are more naked than in DC for some reason (and have on more makeup). I just worked out in LA Fitness for fucking $15...god that was so much money I worked out extra long and hard just to make up for the wad-o-cash I lost. Sure I may blow that on a desert or drink on the weekend, but for a couple hours in a meat warehouse it offends me. Grr.
DL 330 x 5 reps, Bench 185 x 5 reps, supporting exercises were meh
Quart of skim milk after $15 workout: 82ยข
The gym was frankly full of hotties, boys and girls. I mean men and women. Whatever. They might as well be gummy bears since it seems sweet to put them in my mouth until they get all slimy
wait what was I talking about again?
Obviously there wasn't a hookup thing going on with me when I was single, and I'm very not single and have been very not single for some time now. The thing is, it's kind of weird not even having that possibility in my mind. I thought I saw a stick, by which I mean a very skinny blond girl (either cute or eye liner fooled me), looking at me a lot, which was unusual and I wasn't sure if she was interested or my imagination was dumb.
Ah, I know where I was going. Say I was single - I've hit a strange point of my life where some random hookup, while not unpleasant, aint no big deal. It doesn't seem hot, or cool, or even flattering - it's become no big deal. For many people over 20 they've figured this out already, but for me this is a recent revelation. One more "lay" is not going to make me a better, worse, or happier person.
I'm not sure how I feel about that. I've been in relationships before where "the door was closed," but there was still that "maybe" thing in my head somewhere. Now, even single, it's all kind of "meh" for the random hookup with hotties thing. So. What.
But what's next? I has the educ, the job, I'm in ok shape, and I have a hot & smart partner, even a couple friends. So, now what? What am I looking forward to now? Did I get caught up in goal achievement - and if so and I fell out of that, now what?
No angst here, feel fine, just an odd revelation. I think I've spent 40 years looking at every remotely attractive person and thinking "maybe." Now I'm not. Weird.
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who I used to travel with. He not only was the dirty old man who hit on the hotel bar waitress, but he uses several fake profiles on dating websites (I caught him online as "Paul" last week) and has advised me how to use various services to get laid - and the most successful lies to tell to do it. Same guy advised me on which were the best mail order brides. It's not like he's the only sleazeball out there, as we see with the IMF and CA's in-home gubinator. That horrible behavior is common, quite common.
But I'm also a whore - just an honest fun-loving whore. Or I used to be. I used to travel and the idea of hooking up with someone in a strange city was rather appealing, though it's never happened except when I was with friends so there was some common type of introduction or um...endorsement? I never hit on anyone while on travel - I'm kind of scared of eye contact which seems to preclude many meets. I'm far more interested in not-offending people, not aggressing, not making anyone uncomfortable than taking those risks for a potential hook up.
I'm in Atlanta where people are more naked than in DC for some reason (and have on more makeup). I just worked out in LA Fitness for fucking $15...god that was so much money I worked out extra long and hard just to make up for the wad-o-cash I lost. Sure I may blow that on a desert or drink on the weekend, but for a couple hours in a meat warehouse it offends me. Grr.
DL 330 x 5 reps, Bench 185 x 5 reps, supporting exercises were meh
Quart of skim milk after $15 workout: 82ยข
The gym was frankly full of hotties, boys and girls. I mean men and women. Whatever. They might as well be gummy bears since it seems sweet to put them in my mouth until they get all slimy
wait what was I talking about again?
Obviously there wasn't a hookup thing going on with me when I was single, and I'm very not single and have been very not single for some time now. The thing is, it's kind of weird not even having that possibility in my mind. I thought I saw a stick, by which I mean a very skinny blond girl (either cute or eye liner fooled me), looking at me a lot, which was unusual and I wasn't sure if she was interested or my imagination was dumb.
Ah, I know where I was going. Say I was single - I've hit a strange point of my life where some random hookup, while not unpleasant, aint no big deal. It doesn't seem hot, or cool, or even flattering - it's become no big deal. For many people over 20 they've figured this out already, but for me this is a recent revelation. One more "lay" is not going to make me a better, worse, or happier person.
I'm not sure how I feel about that. I've been in relationships before where "the door was closed," but there was still that "maybe" thing in my head somewhere. Now, even single, it's all kind of "meh" for the random hookup with hotties thing. So. What.
But what's next? I has the educ, the job, I'm in ok shape, and I have a hot & smart partner, even a couple friends. So, now what? What am I looking forward to now? Did I get caught up in goal achievement - and if so and I fell out of that, now what?
No angst here, feel fine, just an odd revelation. I think I've spent 40 years looking at every remotely attractive person and thinking "maybe." Now I'm not. Weird.
