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Opportunist: If I didn't show up for work, I wouldn't get 4 hours of early dismissal leave! So here I am in the office.

There here, they're real, and they want to eat your face.

Yesterday I found some 1/2 priced adult swim dvds. I was on the fence about buying them, but I decided to toss them in my cart first and ask about responsibility second. I selected seasons 1&2 metalocalypse, 1-3 venture bros, and of course squidbillies. The total was $90. I quickly closed my browser.

Work has gotten really weird, really weird. It's been noted that I'm well known and respected while a series of management positions are open. I think I'd do well, but I'm not interested. It would help my career and all indications are this would be an easy leap into SES w/n 5 years give or take...but so what? What is that, money? Power? Prestige? I'd rather be comfortable with job I like and less inter-personal conflicts in which I have no choice but to play a significant role.

Yesterday my poor boss had to step between two grown fucking women to keep them from coming to blows. I don't want to be in that position nor would I want to be his boss, and finally I really don't want to answer to the chain of command I see my boss dealing with. I think to be effective I'd have to bury my soft fuzzy self and put on a fair but serious and unforgiving air, be demanding, and ultimately everyone in these roles starts taking shortcuts on professional decorum (rude fuckers). Then there is the blame game, negativity, and common economically efficient "easier to tear others down than to excel myself" ladder climbing crabs-in-a-basket activity.

Yeah I'm totally cool down here. Hell maybe I should quit and blow my savings failing at starting and running a coffee shoppe.

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Douchebag on his bb:
Now I realize my BB is years old making it not douchey or the least bit cool, and the last time I thought I was playing in the big leagues I was doing what I called "power lunch" in a cheap mexican restaurant. I've also talked to someone who said first class seems like a nice thing until it becomes mandatory so you can do more work while on your flights. Be careful what you wish for, especially if that is prestige. Importance has a high cost.

That said, I'm dealing with important things at work so I'm wearing my phone more and checking it often. While I got off work and headed up to Janna's for lunch as the snow started, I got an email from a bigwig. I took it and responded while in a restaurant, and walked outside to take a call from him (so I'm only part douche). I was told to expect a call back, so I finished lunch but warned Janna I might have to take the call when it came in.

I remember a lawyer who complained about a date with a douchebag - he took calls on his cell during the date, while holding his other cell out in case of important calls on it.

The call came in when we were about done, and she went to do a chore while I finished the call and paid the bill. I responded to questions about case law on the fly for a meeting between bigwigs. While answering, I noted that I had taken advantage of the 4 hours early dismissal while those bigwigs stayed on because their schedules are just taht booked in advance. Heck, I used to feel like it was rude that when I had meetings with them they were late - now I'm in the meeting that makes them late, and I understand why.

So honestly, I'm kind of proud that I'm in the middle of this. I'm proud I'm respected, proud I'm relied on, proud to be dealing with these stakes. I also am DONE with it. I don't want to be important, to be on call, to have work priorities running my life. I'm not immune to the douchey pride of being rude to people around me coz, gawsh, I'm so important I can't help but to do this very important schtuff. Ok fine. However, I don't want to be on call all the time, to wear a tie, or a serious expression - in the middle of July, and to bear the burden of being relied on. I'll finish this, but it doesn't inspire me to take or apply to any of those vacant management positions in my organization. Even the SES salaries aren't insanely above what I make right now - not when you count what demands they contain. I just want to work a job, work it well, and then enjoy my time off. Drunk.

You know why I'm ok identifying Democrat? In the news now:
Palin busted for having her husband tell her what to do - in emails - while in office.
Edwards sex tape released.
I'm no fan of dishonesty or infidelity, but would you rather be facing a scandal of ineptitutde or one with a sex tape? I'll take a drunk Kennedy for $200 Pat!