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oh my god tired
in a big meeting talking about millions of dollars a big wig quotes a way of interpreting my case data i have never heard of before - sweat pours out of my back in response. i handle it and carefully say, admit, i am not familiar with that but the law i am familiar with says something different
ie you're wrong, not me
i'm listening to the dollar figures going around wondering how i got here

another meeting giving away another 5 figures, followed by more millions talk with super big wigs - then they call me into a meeting with the top and several runner ups

i'm doing soliloquies
i know my stuff and my hard work shows
i tell the law, the facts, and the behind the scenes story
i drive the meeting with no question regarding my assessment, and none are given
are they nuts
no, this is me and what i do
i can write pages and pages at the drop of a hat
i nearly killed myself in the 8th grade, hating the impossible task of writing a 15 page report - i thought i'd die. now i have to pull back and trim down things taht reach over 30 or 40 pages
i write for fun, pages and pages
i read and take notes, i learn
i'm doing important shit and people who are important listen to me
that's kinda fucked up - me? i mean, me?
Am i confident i've become this or just mock anyone that takes me seriously?

got home and sent an email explaining that the position stated in our meeting (when telling someone they're wrong, take the you out of it) was inconsistent with the case cited
but close i lied
and showed where it said otherwise and the scotus statements to the contrary as well

so tired now, 5 hours of meetings