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May. 2nd, 2009 07:36 amMissed this story from NYC:
Rode the subway the slightly wrong way to get near JFK (finished the trip with a cab). On the train car, where in dc they have the priority seating, were 3 little boys sleeping. They were 'tan,' possibly part peurto-rican? The oldest was about 12, the others 3 years and 3 years younger than that. The youngest woke up the most, stirring at noises and jumps. I nearly took a picture, especially because in the frame would be the man who had folded himself into his hoodie and pulled the hoodie down into a hoodie mummy. I erred on the side of not taking pictures of strangers on the NY subway. Near the end of the line, the oldest woke blinking. He looked down at his younger brother sleeping on his shoulder, and jolted up and away, scowling at him. He in turn jumped, who in so doing woke the youngest. The oldest scowled at them both with a well-seasoned scowl as they gathered their things to get off at the last stop.
I'm on the verge of a rant that nothing matters. Music, love, people…
I left work at the regularish time yesterday, slept some, slept all night, and yet today I'm exhausted. Why? Only 2 weeks of 50 stressful hours a day - what's the big deal? Some people work 70 hours a week - why is this so hard for me? I've gotten a little better at it - leaving work at work, something I could never do mentally. Today a job opened up rising to the GS-15 level - PART TIME. Minimum 24 hours a week, maximum 64 hours a pay period. I say I can live on less - so why does that p/t job not appeal to me? I am thinking about it though… I'm thinking of, and doing…doing….applying for other jobs. I want to master, to beat this one, and I know it will be easier later - but it's such a nasty group. I have so much invested here and it would be better in time, but how much better?
The girl at the counter just told me that tomorrow night murky coffee closes for good. Fuck, that hurts. I'm really going to miss this place. At least there is a similar, perhaps better, place up in b'more (world café I think). It's just…that's in b'more. So many more arty types in b'more. But this place, this episode, was wonderful. I might just start trekking downtown to the new one. Or not.
I'm confused about a refinance. I'm putting just a little bit of money down to make my equity 25%, with a rate drop from 6.125 to 4.75, but that brings my payment from about 1800 to 1200. I am baffled that my payment is dunking by a third.
So tired.
Rode the subway the slightly wrong way to get near JFK (finished the trip with a cab). On the train car, where in dc they have the priority seating, were 3 little boys sleeping. They were 'tan,' possibly part peurto-rican? The oldest was about 12, the others 3 years and 3 years younger than that. The youngest woke up the most, stirring at noises and jumps. I nearly took a picture, especially because in the frame would be the man who had folded himself into his hoodie and pulled the hoodie down into a hoodie mummy. I erred on the side of not taking pictures of strangers on the NY subway. Near the end of the line, the oldest woke blinking. He looked down at his younger brother sleeping on his shoulder, and jolted up and away, scowling at him. He in turn jumped, who in so doing woke the youngest. The oldest scowled at them both with a well-seasoned scowl as they gathered their things to get off at the last stop.
I'm on the verge of a rant that nothing matters. Music, love, people…
I left work at the regularish time yesterday, slept some, slept all night, and yet today I'm exhausted. Why? Only 2 weeks of 50 stressful hours a day - what's the big deal? Some people work 70 hours a week - why is this so hard for me? I've gotten a little better at it - leaving work at work, something I could never do mentally. Today a job opened up rising to the GS-15 level - PART TIME. Minimum 24 hours a week, maximum 64 hours a pay period. I say I can live on less - so why does that p/t job not appeal to me? I am thinking about it though… I'm thinking of, and doing…doing….applying for other jobs. I want to master, to beat this one, and I know it will be easier later - but it's such a nasty group. I have so much invested here and it would be better in time, but how much better?
The girl at the counter just told me that tomorrow night murky coffee closes for good. Fuck, that hurts. I'm really going to miss this place. At least there is a similar, perhaps better, place up in b'more (world café I think). It's just…that's in b'more. So many more arty types in b'more. But this place, this episode, was wonderful. I might just start trekking downtown to the new one. Or not.
I'm confused about a refinance. I'm putting just a little bit of money down to make my equity 25%, with a rate drop from 6.125 to 4.75, but that brings my payment from about 1800 to 1200. I am baffled that my payment is dunking by a third.
So tired.
