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I would like to thank the world for falling apart. I don't need thanksgiving - I watch the news and all I can do is just appreciate where I am more and more. I am glad I bought a house when I did. I'm glad I kept living so far beneath my means. I'm glad I invested when I did (and sold when I did). I'm so glad I work for the modest boring reliable friggin government. I'm glad I worked hard and made decisions to move ahead in my career. I'm glad I kept THIS job (though my resume is still circulating among a few great opportunities). I'm glad at this job I have some idea what I'm doing (maybe I'm even glad I did law school AND the bar), that I often get the "fever" and really enjoy what I'm doing and wonder why they pay me for it, that my boss says thanks _again_, that I can work from Murky sometimes, that I can take gym breaks and work long days to make up for it, that I can report to work in sneakers and wash n' wear clothes, and that I get to travel around while ordering people around like i was important. I'm glad I sold that other place and have some liquidity during these over-hyped times of uncertainty. I'm glad my navel looks like this Hello navel! *waves* I'm glad my skin got this thick. I'm glad I've learned this much patience and how to distance myself from people and things I can't change without ruining my own life and health. I'm glad I worked out all that time so I can do the physical things I can today. I'm glad I didn't eat/drink all that other stuff so I jiggle less when doing that physical stuff. I'm glad I did eat that stuff I did because it was yummy and made me come just a little each time. I'm glad I spent all that time with my friends. I'm glad we took those pictures. I'm glad I read those things. I'm glad I have friends who put up with my shit, and glad I have friends who don't let me get away with TOO MUCH shit. I'm glad Janna likes me back.

It's my personal thanksgiving today. Thank random, thank me, thank those who advised me, thank whatever that I did to get what I enjoy right now. I feel both lucky and like I deserve some of these things I worked for. Hope it lasts.

Special hell

That does it - online shopping can go to hell and please stop taking me with it. I have been shopping online, perhaps too much, as it is far easier to bargain hunt from all the flailing retail corpses. However, the packaging is making me sick. Recently I got free shipping on an order from Amazon - 2 windshield wipers, 1 book, 1 swiss army knife. The book came wrapped in cardboard, inside a box (what, was it going to bend?) The knife was packed appropriately. EACH windshield wiper was put in a box that measured about 4x6x22 with packing material to boot :/ EACH.

I made an order from the corpse of L&T: 2 sets of glasses, 2 pillows. The glasses arrived packed together in their original boxes in a packing box - no packing materials (no breakage). However, EACH throw pillow arrived in an INDIVIDUAL BOX measuring about 4x6x22 PLUS PACKING MATERIAL. Packing material. For a PILLOW. To top it off, I thought they were synthetic and they are in fact down stuffed pillows. Down isn't my favorite thing because birds don't shed the stuff, but I understand it's warming power. However, pillows don't keep you warm and with down they're just unwashable and uncomfortable. So, they're evil uncomfortable material and they wasted a half acre of forest to send them to me - because you certainly wouldn't want to put 2 18" pillows in one 22" box, oh and you need packing material to prevent breakage of the pillows (unlike glassware). You also couldn't possibly pack the PILLOWS around the GLASSES as packing material? No, that wouldn't make any sense whatsoever - certainly the pillows would be smashed into tiny pieces while the glassware needs no protection whatsoever.

I have a stack of cardboard boxes of various shapes that nearly touches the ceiling. Sure I can recycle, but this reduce part of the reduce reuse recycle is being obliterated. I didn't pay for it, someone did, and in that broad sense we all do. Egads, man.

(no subject)

Sometimes in the shelter of feeing good I take the time to feel the rest of the pain.
Or select pieces of it.

In other news, my favorite utube videos not embedded coz that's rude
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=21OH0wlkfbc
(gansta seasame)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aGTNS13SDU
(fuck the pain away - peaches, as performed by Ms. Piggy)
(really you could kill a workday looking up peaches' videos)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=57ta7mkgrOU
(Kermit sings hurt)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfLAv3JHRwY
(Lazy town meets Lil' John) (Thanks Tony)