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1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gQAHMj2qFxE (thanks Tony - spot fucking on) (if you're watching this for the first time, make sure you catch the 2-minute mark)

2. I saw a horribly 1-sided argument on a talking head show this AM. They were talking about "keeping the krist in xmas" and had a bunch of churchy fucks discussing it. Fook yoo. However, the phrasing of the question did a better job of explaining the tension this holiday brings than the discussion - while xtianity is a big religion in this country, we also based our country on a stated separation of church and state. So where does an officially recognized xtian holiday fit into that? I think the answer is this: while the holiday is a xtian one by nature (ok technically it's a pagan holiday the xtians took over, but as stated today most people think it is and celebrate it as xtian) it has also BECOME an american tradition. As such, it is an important part of the landscape, but for it to be part of a culture of inclusiveness - it should be celebrated as a state holiday without the religious overtones or with multiple recognized overtones for the spirit of accepted diversity.

3. My friends in couples are horribly cute. Horribly. For the record, I'm basing my expectations and "goals" of relationships on what you bastards are doing. That means you have to stay happy or risk disappointing me. I like what you have and want it for myself. Neat - that's meant as sweet but it sounds creepy, so I'm sticking with it. That's kind of who and what I am.

4. I think I'm going to have that small get-together on 12/25. No idea what it will be, probably just sitting around blabbing, movies, whatever - but no xmas or anti-xmas, just a get-together since the stores are all closed. Nifty. Also going to wrap up before 10pm (I have no idea when to start) because I work the next day.

5. Hollering about the issues of whether a kink is a fetish or if it is acceptable to put a drink on the urinal in the bathroom, and enjoying the arguments with friends, I was feeling more lawyerish than usual. It's just fun to argue sometimes, even with the yelling and posturing - you can tell by the occasional clink of glasses or quiet comments inbetween. Why that is fun I'm not sure - character flaws?

6. I've decided I'm idiot for wanting more material things. I was loading LOTR2 on my laptop in murky, when I thought about my desire to get a new computer and tv. Suppose I did have a fully integrated tv, stereo, music collection, and movie system. What would I watch on it? How often do I listen to music throughout the house? Would I enjoy the setup 2 months after I got it?

7. What am I doing up at this hour? Wasn't I out drinking last night? Oh yeah - now that I'm drinking so much less often, I pay a far smaller toll when I do.

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I hate to toot my own horn (not really, but I'm supposed to say that) (yes that is an intentional and accurate double-entendre) but I just had the most amazing gym workout! I woke up a little kinda feeling last nights libations, and after finishing my night with a solo nightcap and gaming - I was not sure I would be bouncing out of bed. It didn't matter - I had all day to be hung over if need be, but slowly I found myself not really feeling it (not 100%, but not in pain). So I went to the gym.

Ok, the one drawback is my bench remains static. I had the sense and unusual initiative to interrupt someone's ipod to ask for a spot - good thing, because I didn't quite get 3 lifts off of 185 (it was my third set, I did 2 of 2, then wanted to see if I actually had the 3 or not). That's a long way from 225, my silly goal. Shortly after that I ran into a guy I know from the USDA and that gym, and he noted I was looking bigger!? I thought I might look bigger, but I mainly thought it was because I was wearing smaller shirts. Well that affirmation / ego boost had me revved, and for some reason everything else I did today was spot on. My form was good, my energy was good, I pushed into and past pain in many areas. Now I have nothing I haven't torn up - I can hardly move, but I look and feel fanfuckingtastic.

Funny part is I'm about 2-3 lbs heavier than my target weight, and you can definitely see that around my belly. Problem is - if I get bigger, how do I tell what weight I should shoot for? I think I'll get some gut calipers...

But wow. I. Feel. So. Good.