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Feb. 10th, 2005 09:40 amOn a lame but happy note - did my taxes last night and will have enough of a refund to fully fund the Roth IRA for 2005. I'm thinking of perusing consumer reports past 3 years of mutual fund analyses, seeing who is consistent in their ratings, then exploring the holdings under them and looking for commonalities and buying stock in identified individual companies through scottrade.
12 steps to recover...from what?
I found it interesting when I was exposed to AA and their related INSANE groups, in which I found people were more addicted to 'group support' than they were to drugs/alcohol/sex, that I had engaged in their steps in my personal life w/o any prompting. The great difference between what they wanted to do and what I had done was that I did it just because I cared about right vs. wrong, they did it with the belief that they were schmegma and only god could pull them out of their own slime.
Their steps can be summarized in far fewer, especially if you remove the god from them. I also didn't buy their stance of pretending they were powerless, my entire belief system works with the assumption that in most situations you have the power to change and control. My personal version was:
1. Assess where and who you are, with a focus on admitting what you've done wrong
2. Determine that you want to change
3. Seek a direction for improvement
4. Make amends, try to repair wrongs you've committed to others. Fall back on karma where the person in question is unreachable.
I think I've gone too far in one respect - regret. To this day my mind plays over events that happened when I was 17-25. I physically shudder at the incredibly stupid things I did, who go hurt, and how bad. I've hit the point that I've had to really look at these regrets and call them into question.
( I'm completely fucking psycho )
Dood - I may try to be psycho but they just setting the bar too damn high. Note this minor observation from![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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12 steps to recover...from what?
I found it interesting when I was exposed to AA and their related INSANE groups, in which I found people were more addicted to 'group support' than they were to drugs/alcohol/sex, that I had engaged in their steps in my personal life w/o any prompting. The great difference between what they wanted to do and what I had done was that I did it just because I cared about right vs. wrong, they did it with the belief that they were schmegma and only god could pull them out of their own slime.
Their steps can be summarized in far fewer, especially if you remove the god from them. I also didn't buy their stance of pretending they were powerless, my entire belief system works with the assumption that in most situations you have the power to change and control. My personal version was:
1. Assess where and who you are, with a focus on admitting what you've done wrong
2. Determine that you want to change
3. Seek a direction for improvement
4. Make amends, try to repair wrongs you've committed to others. Fall back on karma where the person in question is unreachable.
I think I've gone too far in one respect - regret. To this day my mind plays over events that happened when I was 17-25. I physically shudder at the incredibly stupid things I did, who go hurt, and how bad. I've hit the point that I've had to really look at these regrets and call them into question.
( I'm completely fucking psycho )
Dood - I may try to be psycho but they just setting the bar too damn high. Note this minor observation from
transentient http://www.livejournal.com/users/miss_mcdonald/
