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Apr. 26th, 2003 11:00 amDo you ever wish you were stupid? Today all I can think of are advantages to being cognitively out of the loop. You would agree with the war, and say we won. There would always be something good on tv. People wouldn’t feel threatened by you intellectually. You’d like first run popular movies at the megaplex. You’d think that there was a car that could make you happy. You’d look forward to sports and care about the outcome of the game. People on tv would tell you what to buy and you’d feel comfortable with the recommendation. You’d feel like you were right because you just sort of understood things in your gut. You’d go to barb-b-ques. You would rarely watch the news, and only then because you wanted to see the star’s new baby. You wouldn’t go to church, but believe that you had eternal life in heaven and generally agree with the things the church said that didn’t directly apply to you unless they reflected your current state of belief and practice. You’d know that you were right, and they were wrong. You’d think internet forwarded humor was new and funny, and send it to everyone on your friend’s list. You’d get an LJ and post quizzilla results, believing the results were flattering and accurately described you.
Today is a day of self-indulgent negative reflection. I’m a short male. I’m kinda ugly but not enough to be interesting. I’m not very strong, not good at running, not good at martial arts, not good at boxing…well not very anything spectacular physically. A slight pudge in the middle. I’m almost smart, but only enough to not fit the american mold – not enough to fit in with people you can tell have triple digit iqs. I’m not well read, I don’t have an extensive knowledge of any subjects whatsoever, never mind one of interest. I have a so-so education, soon to be supplemented by more so-so education. I have a million friends but never fit in – for about 20 years my presence has been more and more allowed but not sought after. I almost have an education, I almost have interests. It seems a little bit of everything equals nothing.
All these things are of course, under my control, yet I do little to change them. I can’t even whine about it.
Argh I was trying to whine and someone invited me to coffee, then to a movie. I will have to mope…I mean reflect…later – it’s time for my boxing class.
Today is a day of self-indulgent negative reflection. I’m a short male. I’m kinda ugly but not enough to be interesting. I’m not very strong, not good at running, not good at martial arts, not good at boxing…well not very anything spectacular physically. A slight pudge in the middle. I’m almost smart, but only enough to not fit the american mold – not enough to fit in with people you can tell have triple digit iqs. I’m not well read, I don’t have an extensive knowledge of any subjects whatsoever, never mind one of interest. I have a so-so education, soon to be supplemented by more so-so education. I have a million friends but never fit in – for about 20 years my presence has been more and more allowed but not sought after. I almost have an education, I almost have interests. It seems a little bit of everything equals nothing.
All these things are of course, under my control, yet I do little to change them. I can’t even whine about it.
Argh I was trying to whine and someone invited me to coffee, then to a movie. I will have to mope…I mean reflect…later – it’s time for my boxing class.
