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vicarzRacism? I was just listening to NPR describe what it's like to date...with racism. The story I heard was of a black girl whose "first date" was with a white guy who turned out to be racist. First date my ass - they moved in together. By her version, he had racist grandparents and didn't think it was a big deal, but when she took an af-amer class they started having problems, and ultimately they broke up over BLM and him saying "all lives matter." Now, she then says he said some flat-out racist shit after they broke up, and she "thanked him for showing who he really was." Huh. I dunno - I don't think of a white guy who moves in with his black girlfriend as racist? I don't think that saying racist things to your ex makes you racist - you might be a dick, but sadly I have also picked at the nerve of a rare bitter ex when I was young. Racist?
I think I need to man up and not worry about the accusation - I look white, therefore, I will be called racist. There are not a lot of black folks in my hood (lots of hispanics though) and a new guy just moved in. I recognize him at a glance when he wears a tank top and walks his dog, as there have been tons of fights about dog walking off the leash - recently asking again not too as we have some tiny baby bunnies - and I've seen this guy like that multiple times. I saw him as I came in today, having turned off "everyone is racist unless you're af-amer, and then BLM is 100% all day every day" NPR, and my first instinct was to figure out how to politely tell him he has to leash his dog...
but I didn't say anything because I was worried about being seen as racist for accosting some black dude. Even though I also do the same thing to any white dude.
I have not been viewing lj. I'm not feeling guilty. One major change, besides it being blocked at work, is that I'm working cover to cover a lot more. I only got some downtime this weekend when my gf was out of town. I'm around her a LOT, and having her right there kind of leeches the urge to communicate...I'm already communicating. Or I miss the feedback of the lj of old.
Old - I'm bragging about it. I say "I'm almost 50" a lot, but I think a lot of that is the fact everyone is always shocked when I point this out.
I went to a block party meeting tonight. I still haven't moved in, obviously. Today I met Jordan grabbing some tools for a not-my-house home project he was doing, though he said he'd be back tomorrow. He says he's done with the wiring and just needs to finish up the smoke alarms tomorrow. That might mean moving in this weekend. Might not, and often doesn't. But tonight I was in the meeting because my block has a block party in Sep, permits are applied for, and we are both donating cash and organizing how this all happens. We might get a moon bounce. Oddly I noticed our demographics: Young white men, and older af-amer people (2 fem, 1 male). I still count - 50% black, 50% white, no other races at the meeting.
Racism. I see a lot of young azns playing pokemon. And white kids. And white adults. I don't think I've seen a lot of blacks playing pokemon. Or people with gray hair. What race are the pokemon? Do I like the ones with racist features and not know it? Sigh...
I think I need to man up and not worry about the accusation - I look white, therefore, I will be called racist. There are not a lot of black folks in my hood (lots of hispanics though) and a new guy just moved in. I recognize him at a glance when he wears a tank top and walks his dog, as there have been tons of fights about dog walking off the leash - recently asking again not too as we have some tiny baby bunnies - and I've seen this guy like that multiple times. I saw him as I came in today, having turned off "everyone is racist unless you're af-amer, and then BLM is 100% all day every day" NPR, and my first instinct was to figure out how to politely tell him he has to leash his dog...
but I didn't say anything because I was worried about being seen as racist for accosting some black dude. Even though I also do the same thing to any white dude.
I have not been viewing lj. I'm not feeling guilty. One major change, besides it being blocked at work, is that I'm working cover to cover a lot more. I only got some downtime this weekend when my gf was out of town. I'm around her a LOT, and having her right there kind of leeches the urge to communicate...I'm already communicating. Or I miss the feedback of the lj of old.
Old - I'm bragging about it. I say "I'm almost 50" a lot, but I think a lot of that is the fact everyone is always shocked when I point this out.
I went to a block party meeting tonight. I still haven't moved in, obviously. Today I met Jordan grabbing some tools for a not-my-house home project he was doing, though he said he'd be back tomorrow. He says he's done with the wiring and just needs to finish up the smoke alarms tomorrow. That might mean moving in this weekend. Might not, and often doesn't. But tonight I was in the meeting because my block has a block party in Sep, permits are applied for, and we are both donating cash and organizing how this all happens. We might get a moon bounce. Oddly I noticed our demographics: Young white men, and older af-amer people (2 fem, 1 male). I still count - 50% black, 50% white, no other races at the meeting.
Racism. I see a lot of young azns playing pokemon. And white kids. And white adults. I don't think I've seen a lot of blacks playing pokemon. Or people with gray hair. What race are the pokemon? Do I like the ones with racist features and not know it? Sigh...
