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vicarzThe gym and I have half parted ways. I guess I'm a spoiled little twat, because I really enjoyed "status" of being unusually strong. Sure, guys squat 4 and 500, but my 315 or more was unusual. My squat is the one lift I can still kind of do - just the other day a young guy approached me when he noticed we were wearing the same lifting shoes. I saw he had finished with only 155 or so on the bar, and that's about where I started my warmups...I knew no matter how happy and humble I was he'd see my big lifts later (not landsmashing, but doubles around 315). After I had done a few he commented on the "huge lifts." As always I poo poo'd them, and noted he was well on his way while I still remember being scared of my first few 225 lifts.
The nerve pinch isn't healed after hundreds of dollars in co-pays, thousands in insurance burden to society, and the related chiro and PT visits. My bench has gone from 235 doubles, to 95 for 5, currently around 125 for 5 (followed by 4, 3, 3, 3...). Most of the problem seems to be my left tricep isn't firing. I've been experimenting with tricep pulls/extensions, and they're stupidly weak. Face pulls, assisted pull-ups, traction - nothing is fixing this problem.
And I don't care much. Or I do. It's not clear - it seems a lot of my healthy program was based on enjoying being relevant or a minor player in the gym. Struggling with 95 lb benches while a small skinny guy beside me reps 135 is motivationally challenging.
I said I was going to pick up the cardio, but I have not applied this theory. I never feel like it and its feels so...droll. I should do it, but my motivation isn't there.
I do stand at my desk most of the day now - I have largely adjusted to the varidesk and in theory this will help with the spine shape, compaction, arthritis, and nerve pinch.
One last nervous area for me is the pinch...again. I can sort of deadlift, as someone most of my grip is ok, and I've done a few DLs at 365 and 385 (old fun was 435, or was it 445?). The oddball issue is the DL feels fine (though my form has faded - I'm back to using my back too much, a problem I'm re-fixing right fucking now tyvm) at heavy weights - but in the warmup stage I feel the same nerve twinge that started this slope of death. I've told the docs and nobody has a theory about why that is. The best I can figure is really pulling my shoulders back while I DL somehow engages or aggravates the nerve, while just keeping my back straight and letting the shoulders be more natural avoids the issue (hence why it disappears on heavy lifts). I have had no pain since the original not-injury.
Sad how much of my gym motivation was being impressive. Like the tween I joke I am, I need to be a special little snowflake everywhere I go, covered in sparkles so everyone blinks at my blinks.
The nerve pinch isn't healed after hundreds of dollars in co-pays, thousands in insurance burden to society, and the related chiro and PT visits. My bench has gone from 235 doubles, to 95 for 5, currently around 125 for 5 (followed by 4, 3, 3, 3...). Most of the problem seems to be my left tricep isn't firing. I've been experimenting with tricep pulls/extensions, and they're stupidly weak. Face pulls, assisted pull-ups, traction - nothing is fixing this problem.
And I don't care much. Or I do. It's not clear - it seems a lot of my healthy program was based on enjoying being relevant or a minor player in the gym. Struggling with 95 lb benches while a small skinny guy beside me reps 135 is motivationally challenging.
I said I was going to pick up the cardio, but I have not applied this theory. I never feel like it and its feels so...droll. I should do it, but my motivation isn't there.
I do stand at my desk most of the day now - I have largely adjusted to the varidesk and in theory this will help with the spine shape, compaction, arthritis, and nerve pinch.
One last nervous area for me is the pinch...again. I can sort of deadlift, as someone most of my grip is ok, and I've done a few DLs at 365 and 385 (old fun was 435, or was it 445?). The oddball issue is the DL feels fine (though my form has faded - I'm back to using my back too much, a problem I'm re-fixing right fucking now tyvm) at heavy weights - but in the warmup stage I feel the same nerve twinge that started this slope of death. I've told the docs and nobody has a theory about why that is. The best I can figure is really pulling my shoulders back while I DL somehow engages or aggravates the nerve, while just keeping my back straight and letting the shoulders be more natural avoids the issue (hence why it disappears on heavy lifts). I have had no pain since the original not-injury.
Sad how much of my gym motivation was being impressive. Like the tween I joke I am, I need to be a special little snowflake everywhere I go, covered in sparkles so everyone blinks at my blinks.
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Date: 2016-06-03 12:40 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2016-06-03 09:42 pm (UTC)Understandable that you want to take a financial and mental break. But I wouldn't rule out all hope.
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Date: 2016-06-03 10:25 pm (UTC)It also seems while the cause is a mystery, damaged nerves just take a long time to heal.