vicarz | Nothing about nothing

Walking to work over-caffeinated and slightly late I pull out my cell phone to see if anything happened last night...and I see the tag of washing instructions from my shirt, along with the seam, because you see I have it on inside-out. A woman is a few feet behind me also walking to the metro, so I scout out the area in front of me and act like I'm looking at my phone. I step to the side of the sidewalk and slow down staring intently at my phone and she passes me. When she's a few feet out of the way I swing off my backpack and whip off my shirt in girl-movie style that turns it inside-out in the process, and put it on correctly.

Walking the rest of the way to work I realize I've left both lunch and my gym shoes at home as well.

This morning I had a "am I fat" moment when I realized a spot between my thighs was raw. I just started wearing shorts again, and I think one pair has too much seam/thread/junk between the legs and isn't really cut short enough for my build. Add in some sweat and you might get some chaffing? Or, I'm so fat my legs are rubbing together. I'm not sure my fat good ratio or size right now as I'm still a bit nutty in the gym, getting bigger, and showing minor strength gains. I am carrying fat and more than I mean to long-term, but I can't tell with mirrors whether I'm too fat or how much of my size is flub and how much is productive. So I stepped onto the highly inaccurate body fat scale.

When I was stupid washboard skinny I think I hit 130 at 8-12% body fat.
Today, using 2 measurement estimates based on athletic focus but not updating age from 42, I got:
1. Athletic: 152 lbs and 17-18% bf.
2. Very athletic: 152 lbs and 10-11% bf.
It sounds silly that I can't tell where I am fat-wise, may confuse some that I mostly don't care, but I'm doing all olympic lifting - even my cardio is essentially olympic lifting (prowler sled pulls & pushes, volume sets like 5x10, kettlebell humping), but this means my core muscles are showing some size - such as my obliques. This both makes me wider with muscle, but pushes fat further out / makes it more obvious. Also, I'm fatter - I can grab my muscle and shake the fat on top of them for a minor jello effect (remember my utube video?)

My pants that were tight are super tight around my waist, but other pants tend to be tight in the thighs where I think I'm mostly muscle. I don't want to get too fat - definitely not interested in having to replace all my clothes - but I also don't want to give up the building strength phase.