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[vicarz]

I refer to crazy with a lot more humor - I don't write about my feelings as much. I still have them, they're still crazy, but the days are filled with more activity to the degree the crazy is not obvious. I have my problems, they're not all solved, but they feel less important. I'm content to leave some things less than perfect - like the crooked shade at my office window. Most don't notice it, and if you do, I'm not ashamed because it's functional. If it comes crashing down for all the world to see, even then it'll be a lot more relevant inside than what strangers could see if you care to look from outside. Wow, this analogy has some staying power.

I do less navel gazing but I think my navel is cleaner? It only hurts if you poke it and that's probably not necessary?

The person who took the icon picture doesn't talk to me anymore and I don't mind; she's crazier than I am to such a degree I'd rather walk on eggshells because they're more resilient. I still have a warm spot for her and don't forget all the times she was good to me, but am not going to make helping her even a part-time job.

Without pain and yearning these feelings don't seem important, but I think that's the point.

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[seaopaque.livejournal.com]

Thank you for this post.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

Man (pause) is it too late to make my "it gets better" video?

New kick: appeasing the grammar adherents by abusing writing by adding pauses by typing (pause). Poor commas.

[seaopaque.livejournal.com]

It's only getting worse for those commas.