Always welcome but never invited

[vicarz]

I've learned to subvert my feelings because I'm fucking crazy
but I've learned so much control it's hard to tell what I feel
so when I take time off and drink until I can feel
it feels important
but I don't know what it is that I am feeling.

Comments

[antarctico.livejournal.com]

OK, first problem is, no matter how blotto you are, you are still sober enough to type. If you want to go down that black hole of self examining your self examination, you need to break through that wall and drink until you are an embarrassing mess. Do try to not drink so much that you black out and forget any useful realizations.

Or, screw the booze and try some Psilocybin next time -- random drug test be damned.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

It's worse when booze is just a crutch to start and I don't actually drink that much. This is of course good the next morning.

I enjoy the memories and analyses because ultimately I also know they don't matter much. But Psilocybin over ice...

[fitfool.livejournal.com]

I used to frustrate M because I was so out of touch with my feelings that I didn't even know WHAT I was feeling when I did acknowledge that I was feeling Something. I'm a fan of sitting with the feelings. You'll probably figure them out eventually.