I try not to be a born again about meds or nothin, but they've done me a world of good. I used to struggle with the same queer concept of "I don't want to lose myself". While an understandable concern after hearing the horror stories of prozac zombies and what forth, it got to the point where it was like "Well being 'me' hasn't really gotten me anywhere, so let's give this a shot"
In the end it didn't really change who I am, if anything, it made me a more efficient me, now being able to operate without everything triggering fear responses and Vista style "This person is trying to talk to you, POSSIBLE TROJAN, Do you wish to continue?" shit popping up (yes, I made that analogy and i'm sticking with it.)
I guess for me it was important to divine what fell under 'personality trait' and what fell under 'broken brain'.
I dunno, maybe that doesn't help, but at least I can make eye contact with people now (kinda). But i digress.
I find I don't much care for drinking these days either. Whenever I drink I feel a bit like an angry embarrassment.
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Date: 2010-04-18 05:32 pm (UTC)In the end it didn't really change who I am, if anything, it made me a more efficient me, now being able to operate without everything triggering fear responses and Vista style "This person is trying to talk to you, POSSIBLE TROJAN, Do you wish to continue?" shit popping up (yes, I made that analogy and i'm sticking with it.)
I guess for me it was important to divine what fell under 'personality trait' and what fell under 'broken brain'.
I dunno, maybe that doesn't help, but at least I can make eye contact with people now (kinda). But i digress.
I find I don't much care for drinking these days either. Whenever I drink I feel a bit like an angry embarrassment.